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Ditched chapel today. It was fun! You missed out. I mean seriously I heard today's chapel was terrible..should have come with.

Ditched beliefs today. It was fun too!

Ditched drill today. Now that is fun.

mmmm don't really know what happened but I'm worried about you man. I hope everything works out.

Annnnnddd you can stop pretending to be mad because you know that you wished you had ditched with me instead lol. And you're just bummed out. :)

Happy birthday to Greg, Candice, and Nathan! I think that's all..

UCR people are queer. Hot chicks is still pretty good. Didn't eat dinner today. Worked out. Finally starting to get my lower abs.

Today was a good day :)

peace

Hmmm

Ehh Tuesdays..

Peaced out in orchestra. Tired of seeing this shit. Literally sick and tired of people not giving a fuck, not committing, or working hard. And lacking talent in general. I hate to be grouped wit people like that.

Threshold was good.

Justin dude..I feel you man. You're like the Indian me lol.

Thanks matt. I really appreciate it.

Oh god you're just...hmmm..we'll leave it at that.

Kind of tired of life summer please come faster.

I'm seriously reconsidering right now. I've made a decision. Whether it be good or bad I'll just have to deal with the consequences and learn from it. What. About. You? Hmmmm?

I really cant wait for summer, tour, campout. Gonna be fun shit.

Peace

Love is an excuse to get hurt.

Deep shit. Gotta love Bright Eyes. Very very very glad banquet is over. :) and I love all you seniors. I'm going to miss all of you very much. And Jaime thank you for your words of encouragement even though we don't know each other very well. and all those that helped. ESPECIALLY NICK DELEON. Thank you so much. You have no idea how grateful I am for you. You knew I couldn't do everything and you were there for me and I was there for you. Thank you so much.

So tired right now. Going to Barnes and Noble in a bit.

Just go with the flow.

Now I'm gonna do whatever I feel like. And that's going to Barnes and Noble to buy a book and study :)

I actually really want to study. Because it's fun. Gets my mind off of things. Just me and the book and the information.

Pro Musica tour next week! pretty excited.

Thank you for being a good friend dude. I appreciate it. Calling you up to just go to Barnes and Noble with me on a random school night. lol you're the best.

I'm not sure. I hope I'm not.

high five me.

Peace.

The longest day

Today felt like the longest day ever. Half day :) got ice cream after school with Shasta, victor, and my brother. Went home then back to school for quartet practice. Then went to officers. Free pizza! Played monkey snow fight with Michelle and lost. Debtaed on what to do with the room. Went to Parent teacher conference. Talked with knippy. I guess he doesn't hate me too much after all! 50-yard dash rematch..lost again. Found Chandler. Tried to think of stuff for the final. Talked with mymy for a bit. Then picked ip Matt and off to inland, Ontario, vg, and barnes and noble which was epic fail. Good part: it was fun and I ate sushi. Started to write a song. Can't think of anything for it right now.

1. What would you do in my place?

2. hmmmm...

3. Ugh don't lie to me..I can't believe that you lied. You better show up tomorrow

4. Please learn to be responsible and to keep a commitment.

5. Ehhh thank you.

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Not really sure what to write about. I just had a ridiculous amount of caffeine today. Was going crazy in lit. Was crazy all morning. Got a 100% on my chem test that I did absolutely no studying for. Pretty happy. Very lucky too.

Uhhh I seriously don't know what to think. What would you do?

String quartet was a failure today..hopefully it's better tomorrow.

Banquet on Sunday.

Tour in a couple weeks. Pretty excited!

Hmmm...I really don't know.

Finally served detrtion today.

Why?

But would you risk the broken bones? Just to call this place home. This could be home..

Maybe I'm losing my own mind

You know that your are the only one I'd promise the stars..you are.

That song is way too catchy and good.

Don't know what's going on in my life anymore. Don't know who to listen to. Don't know who to talk to. Don't know where to go. Don't know what to do. Eveything's a big mess but I know that as long as I keep walking I'll find an escape from this dark cave. And I think I see the end of the tunnel.

I'm so tired right now I'm crying. Not like crying but my eyes are really teary because they are so tired.

Dr. Benson...the iPad is cool but not cool enough for 50 minutes of my life listening to you talk about it when you could have graded my test. But I still love you. You're one of the best teachers i've ever had.

Zabala you're one sneaky kid. We need to talk.

And what to do with you? I really don't know. Well whatever. We'll see what happens.

I really think you should stop being so independent then blaming it on others. When you take everything on yourself and don't share much of it the rest can't do much. You need to learn to be a leader and lead people. I mean I don't even know what you're tying to do. You don't tell me everything. It will make your life so much easier, trust me.. I hate seeing you like this.

Not really sure what I want anymore. I feel like I'm losing control but I blame that to my lack of sleep generally for the past three years. I just need to sleep lol.

Hello hello hello

Can't remember when I blogged last. I think it was a few days ago. mmmm let's see..this week has just been very trying but it's been fun. Yesterday was an absolute waste of my time. Went to church, ate at Indian clay pot buffet, talked with Justin and Greg. Man Justin I need to hang out with you more man..we have so much in common. Then Greg and I argued about money for a good half hour. Drove to his house then Ben's. Chilled at Ben's house for two hours watching Disney channel. I was about to shoot myself. I just realized how much better off I am by not watching TV. there's so much garbage on it. Went to In-N-Out, left Omar in my car and went to Sam's Club. Came back Omar peaced out lol. Awwww...poor Omar QQ. Mmmmm went to Boba. Met up with Max. Got a text reply 8 hours after I sent it. Rented the hangover then proceeded to Ben's house once again. Got kicked out. I went to Nick's. Came home watched gladiator for a bit. Yeaahhhh yesterday was very wasteful.

Today woke up at 8:00 to go to David's house for the research paper. Then went to school for officers. Ate like 10 servings of almonds lol. Lydia they are actually really filling :) mmmm then went to drill. Played tether ball with Michelle while waiting for more peeps to come. Won once.. And accidentally hit her in the face roflcopter. Drill practice itself was pretty good. Pulled off an amazing plan with Chandler and Ferrenstein :) but Karma is a bitch and I almsot lost my car too thanks to an aggressive young woman who stole my keys out of my pockets. Went to Boba again but got ditched :( saw Katie Dailey and Jordan Rincon. Went to Nates house to attempt to study chem but ended up talking to Hannah about my problems. Came home fixed myself some dinner and currently debating whether to study or not lol. I'm sooooo tired from this whole week..next week is going to be worse. But I know it will all be worth it in the end. And for the joy ofthe seniors and the feeling of success I keep working.

1. Thanks so much for today. It meant a lot to me.

2. Annnddd uhh you're full of shit dude lol. seriously man gdlm. And I'll be borrowing god of war 3 when youre done :)

3. Don't stress so much man..we're all in this together.

4. You man are ...

5. lol we're only mean to you because we love you and want to toughen you up. You're such a baby sometimes