Monday, May 31, 2010

ahahahahaa...

SAT II Chemistry is soooo annoying. The questions are ridiculous and weird. But I still got a 750 on a diagnostic test so it's alright.. Just need to study study study so I can get that 800!

Math 2c i'm not too worried about. Just need to again study and review like mad.

Learning WEDDING DRESS - TAE YANG on the piano.. kind of hard lol. Haven't played the piano in years.



He's a hottie :) i'm not gonna lie, he's pretty hot. lol.

Hopefully I'll be able to learn it by the end of this week.

Saturday, May 29, 2010

Good day

Woke up at 7..fell back asleep. Woke up at 9:30. Got ready went to the Filipino church in redlands lol. At first I thought the concert was at the one in loma Linda.. Haha wasted half an hour that way. We did pretty good! Ummm potluck was really good. Peaced out with Shasta. Went to cold stone but they're closed on Saturdays apparently :( so we went to yogurtlicious! Finally got another stamp in my stamp card after almost a year. Sat in yogurt for about an hour and a half. Whole bunch of Korean people from my church started coming in. But I didn't know any of them..started to get a little awkward so Shasta and I decided to leave and go to nick's house and surprise him. It worked and kira was happy to see us as well :) stayed for a little bit until Shastas dad got mad. Took her to michelle's house then just went home and napped for a couple hours. And then pro musica banquet..awww. It was fun. Food was pretty good. We sang really well. Phil and lexi started crying and Daniel too... So sad. Went to music fest after. Showed up just in time for Cathy nguyen :). Whole bunch of people were there.

It was good talking stuff out. It felt good to just get things off my chest. Thanks for listening Shasta. You've always been there for me. I'm gonna miss you so much next year.

Well good night everybodies..

Peace.

200

What a coincidence this will be my 200th post as well.

I'm such an outcast. I just don't fit in. I don't find anyone at school interesting. Just a few. Most are just boring, don't have much substance to them. I'm just not on the same "wave length" as the people. But I don't mind. At least it let's me focus on myself for a while. I've spent so much time this year for others, the class, and the seniors. I think it's time I went back to being how I feel most comfortable.

Today: PE. sat there for fifty minutes. Pro Musica. Sat there for fifty minutes. History. Raped kids on the debate with miles. I was really excited for that. Spanish. Oral presentation. Did pretty good. Chemistry. Sat there for fifty minutes and cleared my detentions! :) math played craps and argued with my pops. Went home. Just slept. Then played video games. Cooked dinner. Went to compassio. Sermon was really good. Too loud. Too many people. No friends. Peaced out. Went to starbucks. Chilled until they closed. Met up with Greg. Tried out his bike..I really want to buy it. I swear gregs like the only person Im just really comfortable with. There's just something when me and him get together..lol cuz we're both douchebags and ostrascized. Whatever we have each others backs. That's all that counts. Everyone else has their special someone or close group of friends I just don't have any of that. I should try and work on that.

Came home and had an hour long discussion with my dad. About my future, my life, how I need to change, my priorities. I know what I want. And what I want basically requires me to have no social life. And well I'm getting there. And it's depressing..I just need people...I just want someone. Someone. I don't know who..but someone. Special. That I like. And who likes me too. Someone I can talk to about anything. Someone who can talk to me about anything. Someone I can just be myself when I'm with them. Someone that accepts me for who I am. Someone that wants to talk to me and hang out with me on occasion. Someone that I enjoy talking and hanging out with. Someone who I can just laugh with..and can just sit there with. Share memories. Create new ones. But whatever. I'm done. I've been done trying to do that stuff since two years ago. Well just like Greg said don't worry about it. You don't have to look. The right one will come and when she does you guys will both know. Then just be confident in yourself. And I believe that. Someday. Someone.

I think I'm gonna go into law again. I think ive already blogged that but yeah. That's become my new goal.

Need to start studying. I'm not too worried but now I really want 800 on both just to show him that I can. Oh I also need to find a summer job! I need some money!

1. You annoy me.

2. You really annoy me. You're seriously just all talk. Stop acting like it and actually show it. Stop being such a poser.

3. You're really messed up. Really messed up.

4. Thank you for that. I realized how wrong I had been. Thank you. Please just trust me.

5. You better pay up. Or else I'll destroy your car. I'm serious.

Ehhh kind of pissed off..not sure why..well I do know but for many reasons.

Peace everybodies :)

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Final stretch

Ohhhh man. So close to the end. But I'm just drudging along. I've slacked off so much. My chemistry report was so depressing. I went from a 100% to 80% in one quarter. mmm.. I need to start studying for SAT II.

Huge dilemma: Orchestra concert? or Senior graduation?

I would choose graduation, but my dad...hmmmm we'll see..

These guys are amazing.



I want to punch my bro..sooo fricking bad.
All he does is try to make me mad.
I want to be somewhere else, far far away
Run from all my troubles and today

hmmm anyways.

I need to start coming up with melodies and chords and keys for my songs. I have two currently. One of them is about quarter way done and the other just the lyrics. soo hmm hopefully by the end of the summer I'll have both done.

Nate we will definitely jam this summer and make our little band. I'm working on some stuff so yeahh..

Annnnnnddd this one too.. one of my favorite songs:



Soooo excite for the summers!

Let's go go go!

Peace everybodys

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

2010

I'm gonna miss all well almost all of you haha.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

tee hee hee

Tuesdays are just not a good day. Ever. Had orchestra until 9:30. Most depressing thing ever. So I found out that graduation and my concert are on the same day... hmmmm..which one do I go to? I'm like supposed to do something for graduation or some other.. soooo I guess I'll flake on orchestra :)

I have waaaayyyyy too many detentions.

Yearbooks look aight..

I'm not gonna charge my phone anymore.. I think I'll be much happier without it.

Michelle, you should lighten up a bit..

And I've given up on school. Yup. I'm pretty excited for debates in history though :) It's going to be fun.

I had forgotten how much I enjoyed listening to classical music. The pure emotion and energy from the music is amazing. From good composers it's just a work of art. This is one genre of music I can never get tired of. Currently listening to Rachmaninov's Piano Concerto No. 2 in C minor. very very very nice piece of music. Intricate, complex, and really shows what he's like. You can really just feel the emotions and they're just so overwhelming in this piece. It's my first time listening to Zimmerman play it and he does a phenomenal job... very very very very very well done.. hah I feel like a nerd but I don't care! because I really do love classical music.

Randomm

1. whats your name spelt backwards?

eel noj

2. What did you do last night?

AIM'd with Nicole, Justin while trying to study for Literature and Chem.


3. The last thing you downloaded onto your computer?

pictures for the Spanish project either that or gabe bondoc songs.

4. Have you ever licked a 9 volt battery?

nope

5. Last time you swam in a pool?

hahaha forever ago.. I don't like pools

6. What are you wearing?

my grits

7. How many cars have you owned?

one

8. Type of music you dislike most?

music that has no meaning.

9. Are you registered to vote?

nope

10. Do you have cable?

nope

11. What kind of computer do you use?

an old dell.

12. Ever made a prank phone call?

hahahha of course

13. You like anyone right now?

nah

14. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?

BOTH

15. Furthest place you ever traveled?

KOREA

16.Do you have a garden?

no

17. What's your favorite comic strip?

uhhh idk..Calvin and Hobbes? haha

18. Do you know all the words to the national anthem?

nahh.

19. Shower, morning or night?

BOTH

20. Best movie you've seen in the past month?

none

21. Favorite pizza toppings?

PINEAPPLES :)

22. Chips or popcorn?

chips most definitely

23. What cell phone provider do you have?

T-Mobile..they're kinda queer though

24. Have you ever smoked peanut shells?

haha what the...no. Never even thought of that

25. Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?

ohhh yeahh

26. Orange Juice or apple?

apple juice

27. Who were the last people you sat at lunch with?

Justin Massey

28. favorite chocolate bar?

not really a bar but the ferrero rocher stuff

29. Who is your longest friend and how long?

prob nicky d. Since fifth grade?

30. Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?

hahahha last year I think?

31. Have you ever won a trophy?

sure

32.Favorite artist?

We the Kings

33. Favorite computer game?

Starcraft

34. Ever ordered from an infomercial?

hahah no

35. Sprite or 7-UP?

Sprite all the way. 7-UP is weird.

36. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school/work?

Everydays

37. Last thing you bought at Walgreens?

Ohhhh man thhis was like four years ago. I bought hair gel and chocolate

38. Ever thrown up in public?

yes

39. Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding true love?

uhhh sure

40. Do you believe in love at first sight?

Nope. That is the biggest pile of bull ever

41.Can exes just be friends?

Sure if they want to

42. Who was the last person you visited in the hospital?

I don't remember..probably my dad

43. Did you have long hair as a young kid?

hahah yes

44. What message is on your voicemail machine?

we don't has one

45. Where would you like to go right now?

Korea

46. What was the name of your first pet?

Karsen

47. What kind of back pack do you have, and what's in it?

It's a black nerdy one. Just some papers, my PE shirt, and socks :)

48. Last incoming/outgoing call on your phone?

Dave from Boba Tea House

49. What is one thing you are grateful for today?

One less day of school :)

50. What do you think about most?

my future