Today was absolute trash..
Although last night was freaking awesome..
Had a really deep talk with Ronan and Aaron.
Got just a few hours of sleep.
I really don't know how to describe how I feel right now.
But one thing for sure is disappointment and anger at the fact
that I'm still letting something like that bothering.
I need to move on. Why do I make it so hard for myself?
Drill..hmmmm.
Yeah.
I just need to let some steam off..couldn't go climbing because I had to study for math..
So well here you go blogger. Eat my shit. Literally.
Make me feel better because I have no one else to talk to right now or to confide in.
I really should get a psychologist or therapist or something.
I feel like I'm losing a grip on my life and reality right now.
hmmmm..
Well this is the last time. Hopefully.
Laters gee
Peace
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Oh PUC
You were good to me. But bad. Your food gave me indigestion. But it tasted good.
Giunis was amazing.. I would go up north just for those sandwiches. omg. Orgasm.
The trip was alright I guess. I had fun. Even though it was really boring most of
the times.. the night times were the best. I'm gonna miss you Justin.
Good talks.
Snow Globe. Enough said.
I don't even know why I keep writing on here.
Probably because I have no one else to talk to.
No one understands me like you blogger because you're me.
Will probably never step foot on that campus again.
Hopefully I don't end up going there.
There's one thing I need to set straight before the end of the year though.
I should probably do it soon.
ugh I hate this feeling of going to school the next day after coming back from a good trip.. like vacation, choir tour, havasu, anything.
Chilled with Greg afterwards. at In-n-Out.
then in my car. the usual..
hmmm.
Every time I go on here, it just makes me realize all the things I don't have.
I think I'm going to stop.
But I need an outlet for all my frustrations and everything..hmmm..
The trade-offs..
Going to Thresh tomorrow..
Need to cool off..
Fuck college english..
Thank you Muse for being my saving grace.
And Thank You Jesus for always being with me even when I fall all the time. I thank you so much for never giving up on me and continuing to bless me with life everyday. Please keep my father strong as he is really sick right now. And I understand that I can't have everything. Thank you again for everything. In Jesus name I pray, amen.
hmmm...
I hate feeling like this.. I really do. I am so pathetic. I really am. I am the worst of them all. THE absolute WORST.
I hate myself.
No I don't. I love myself. Just some parts I hate a lot. A lot. I wish I could cut that part away. Excise that part. But then I wouldn't be whole and I would just be a piece and a lie.
omg I am going crazy. Someone save me. Why am I like this?
eff.
GOing to sleep. Now.
Laters gees.
Hopefully the last time. Ever.
At least until something I've been waiting for to happen happens.
Peace.
Giunis was amazing.. I would go up north just for those sandwiches. omg. Orgasm.
The trip was alright I guess. I had fun. Even though it was really boring most of
the times.. the night times were the best. I'm gonna miss you Justin.
Good talks.
Snow Globe. Enough said.
I don't even know why I keep writing on here.
Probably because I have no one else to talk to.
No one understands me like you blogger because you're me.
Will probably never step foot on that campus again.
Hopefully I don't end up going there.
There's one thing I need to set straight before the end of the year though.
I should probably do it soon.
ugh I hate this feeling of going to school the next day after coming back from a good trip.. like vacation, choir tour, havasu, anything.
Chilled with Greg afterwards. at In-n-Out.
then in my car. the usual..
hmmm.
Every time I go on here, it just makes me realize all the things I don't have.
I think I'm going to stop.
But I need an outlet for all my frustrations and everything..hmmm..
The trade-offs..
Going to Thresh tomorrow..
Need to cool off..
Fuck college english..
Thank you Muse for being my saving grace.
And Thank You Jesus for always being with me even when I fall all the time. I thank you so much for never giving up on me and continuing to bless me with life everyday. Please keep my father strong as he is really sick right now. And I understand that I can't have everything. Thank you again for everything. In Jesus name I pray, amen.
hmmm...
I hate feeling like this.. I really do. I am so pathetic. I really am. I am the worst of them all. THE absolute WORST.
I hate myself.
No I don't. I love myself. Just some parts I hate a lot. A lot. I wish I could cut that part away. Excise that part. But then I wouldn't be whole and I would just be a piece and a lie.
omg I am going crazy. Someone save me. Why am I like this?
eff.
GOing to sleep. Now.
Laters gees.
Hopefully the last time. Ever.
At least until something I've been waiting for to happen happens.
Peace.
Monday, February 7, 2011
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Can't Believe
I can't believe you still remembered that haha. Even I forgot about it until you reminded me.
Dang.
Drill was pretty good. Made up two more moves.
Pro musica is such a bore.
I really miss last year's.
Cutting down a lot.
Yay me.
So hard though.
Love my thresh homies. Had fun chilling with you guys tonight. I miss these days. We need to hang more.
Got in a good work out and good climbing session. Going to rest tomorrow for Friday!
It's gonna be interesting.
Laters Gee
Peace.
Dang.
Drill was pretty good. Made up two more moves.
Pro musica is such a bore.
I really miss last year's.
Cutting down a lot.
Yay me.
So hard though.
Love my thresh homies. Had fun chilling with you guys tonight. I miss these days. We need to hang more.
Got in a good work out and good climbing session. Going to rest tomorrow for Friday!
It's gonna be interesting.
Laters Gee
Peace.
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Walk Tall
It was nice talking to Justin today lol.
Never thought we'd become closer.
Just gotta keep your head up man!
Change your attitude.
Today was alright I guess.
Whatever.
Nothing happened.
Just another day.
Basketball game almost gave me a heartattack.
The girls was boring but the guys was freaking intense.
My car is being gay. Engine is messed up.
Hopefully its nothing serious.
Just sketched about driving like this though.
Starting to get sick again..eff.
Idk what makes me have these crazy thoughts.
I'm getting some bad juju.. I feel like something bad is about to happen
in the next couple weeks. I hope I'm wrong.
I wish text messaging was never invented.
And facebook was never invented.
I think then that we would all be much happier.
I'm praying that my car blows up. So that I'll be able to get a new one in a few months.
Please. haha. joke. but I really want a new car.
I need friends. lol. So sad at school.
Scared for class night.. Is anyone gonna try out for anything?
I don't get why I sit on the computer wasting time..
Need to fix that.
Haven't done numbers in forever. lol. Here we go.
1. Your mom needs to chill out. forreal
2. Sorry for flaking today.
3. I don't think I'll ever understand you. Maybe I'm not meant to.
4. We need to talk more niggah.
Laters gee
Peace.
Never thought we'd become closer.
Just gotta keep your head up man!
Change your attitude.
Today was alright I guess.
Whatever.
Nothing happened.
Just another day.
Basketball game almost gave me a heartattack.
The girls was boring but the guys was freaking intense.
My car is being gay. Engine is messed up.
Hopefully its nothing serious.
Just sketched about driving like this though.
Starting to get sick again..eff.
Idk what makes me have these crazy thoughts.
I'm getting some bad juju.. I feel like something bad is about to happen
in the next couple weeks. I hope I'm wrong.
I wish text messaging was never invented.
And facebook was never invented.
I think then that we would all be much happier.
I'm praying that my car blows up. So that I'll be able to get a new one in a few months.
Please. haha. joke. but I really want a new car.
I need friends. lol. So sad at school.
Scared for class night.. Is anyone gonna try out for anything?
I don't get why I sit on the computer wasting time..
Need to fix that.
Haven't done numbers in forever. lol. Here we go.
1. Your mom needs to chill out. forreal
2. Sorry for flaking today.
3. I don't think I'll ever understand you. Maybe I'm not meant to.
4. We need to talk more niggah.
Laters gee
Peace.
Monday, January 31, 2011
Kingdom Hearts
Oh man I love Kingdom Hearts. It was so magical. The combination of my two favorite things in the world, Final Fantasy and Disney. it was fantastical. Makes me want to play through it again. All the side arcs and side projects were ok. Chain of Memories was really good. Birth By Sleep was really good. Haven't tried the other ones but they look really fun.
Today was a really good day. Man 4 good days in a ROW. Thank you Jesus.
Got a 97% on my Calculus test! Whoooo.
Nothing in M&F
Chapel. Nap.
Pro Musica. ehhhh...let's skip this one haha
Spanish. Usual garbage waste time, mess with senor :)
Lunch, Mcgangbang and SWEET tea.
Econ = Foosball time. I told you I was really good. Didn't believe me.
More SWEET tea after econ.
Drill. Eh semi productive I guess.
Idk today was just really good.
On a major sugar crash right now though.
But whatever.
Sleeping it off.
I like 2011 already.
Doesn't feel like a new year but I like it.
Laters gee
Peace.
Today was a really good day. Man 4 good days in a ROW. Thank you Jesus.
Got a 97% on my Calculus test! Whoooo.
Nothing in M&F
Chapel. Nap.
Pro Musica. ehhhh...let's skip this one haha
Spanish. Usual garbage waste time, mess with senor :)
Lunch, Mcgangbang and SWEET tea.
Econ = Foosball time. I told you I was really good. Didn't believe me.
More SWEET tea after econ.
Drill. Eh semi productive I guess.
Idk today was just really good.
On a major sugar crash right now though.
But whatever.
Sleeping it off.
I like 2011 already.
Doesn't feel like a new year but I like it.
Laters gee
Peace.
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Sunday Morning Rain Is Falling
I think it was last Sunday when I posted Sunday Morning Rain is NOT falling..
haha clever clever..
If I remember that was a depressing one.. lol
oh mood swings. fuck you.
Today was a good day.
Man three good days in a row. This is a good streak!
Woke up. Got an oil change for my car..Wal Mart takes forever to do it.. I swear I walked around the store like 50 times. Ended up just playing video games at the well video game center area whatever. After like an hour they finally called me.. Honestly it only takes like 10 or 15 minutes at the most.
Came home. Went to Thresh.
Bomb session. I missed working on problems like this. Getting shut down constantly. Only making me want to get back and try it again, maybe a different beta. Constantly challenging me. The recent problems have been really boring. Most of them aren't that good.
Worked out. Ran a mile. Ordered delivery pizza to the gym. Played foosball.
idk today was just really good. And yesterday. Yesterday was a lot of fun.. Fun is just a matter of perspective.
Portos next friday to pick up justin and ed.
Snowboarding on Saturday.
Sunday = Sleep.
Laters gee
peace.
haha clever clever..
If I remember that was a depressing one.. lol
oh mood swings. fuck you.
Today was a good day.
Man three good days in a row. This is a good streak!
Woke up. Got an oil change for my car..Wal Mart takes forever to do it.. I swear I walked around the store like 50 times. Ended up just playing video games at the well video game center area whatever. After like an hour they finally called me.. Honestly it only takes like 10 or 15 minutes at the most.
Came home. Went to Thresh.
Bomb session. I missed working on problems like this. Getting shut down constantly. Only making me want to get back and try it again, maybe a different beta. Constantly challenging me. The recent problems have been really boring. Most of them aren't that good.
Worked out. Ran a mile. Ordered delivery pizza to the gym. Played foosball.
idk today was just really good. And yesterday. Yesterday was a lot of fun.. Fun is just a matter of perspective.
Portos next friday to pick up justin and ed.
Snowboarding on Saturday.
Sunday = Sleep.
Laters gee
peace.
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