Talking to the Moon

I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away
I want you back

My neighbors think I'm crazy
They don't understand
I want you back

Talking to the moon
Trying to get to you.

Bruno Mars



Man I feel like a douche.
I'm sorry..
For some reason, that's all I ever say to you..
Sorry.



Don't want to think about it right now.

Peace.

no no no

I shouldn't even think of doing it but. More fun yes? haha.

I love myself too much to die.

Climbing club is an excuse to show off. Yes I'll admit it. Along with why I am so adamant that I attend "Ladies night" at Threshold. And bring friends for free day.

I'm just too proud of myself. Is it good? or bad..

I like to think of it as confidence.

But I can be humble too.


I need to find a girlfriend.. seriously. Then I'll have things to do besides climb.

Can't wait until second semester starts. I really can't.


I hope this break goes really really really slow.

Peace.

Oh lord

man.. I'm not gonna say much about yesterday..

But definitely most fun I've had in a while.

Christmas shopping today.

Peace.

yeaahh

The more I talk to you, the more I want you back.
And I just lose track.
Of time I spend thinking, of the things we'd do
If we had been together
No matter what the weather,
I want you in my life again,
Girl, cuz, all I be sayin,
Is I miss you.

I feel dumb thinking of this shit,
I keep saying to me this can't be it.
Turn back the clock
Subtract my rocks
Give me my life back
Give me a clean track
Take away two years
Wish the sky'd turn clear.

Yup just popped in my head..

Dope day overall.

New shoes!!! :) Dragons ftw. Soooo dope. I'm just gonna be raving about them for like the next two weeks.

Tofu I love you.

Brandon's house later.... Not gonna say anything lol.

Sorry Nicole, Vivs, Ricky.

Had a nice little chat.

You are so dumb.. forreall homeboy.. you are really dumb. so dumb

Let's just wash all this away with the rain.

Peace.

Dear..

Whom I don't remember anymore.
Whose voice I cannot recollect.
Whose love I haven't felt.
Whose face is a blur in my memories.
Whom I never knew.
Whom I really never met before.

I miss you. Is it possible to miss someone you don't know? Yes it is.

God have mercy on your soul. And I pray I may see you in the future.

12/16/1996

R.I.P.
Mother.

Well ok day. Went to my three important classes, and hit up threshold.

Came back for cooking. Talked to michelle.

Ditched P.E. went to Starbucks.

Talked to Pastor Jay about climbing club! Freaking so stoked about it.. Pastor Jay you are awesome.

Rap battle after school! J-lee and Willlizzle in the houuusseee.. Slapped Exema, aka, magallanes. lol.

Drill. Did nothing. Talked to my dongseng

Elf! Sat with Sherlene, Krystal, Greg and his sister. Krystal and I started singing during the scene at the end. Freaking hilarious.

Noodle 21 with Greg and Sherlene. Risha and Omar came later. Saw Daniel. Dopetydopety dope.
Their pho isn't that good..

Peace.

Good Day

Today was a good day :)
Did ok on my Calc test.
October Sky in Physics! haha
NO GOVERNMENT. BEST FREAKING PART OF WEDNESDAY
Got into arguments with my senior person at the villa about religion with Miles.. He is so conservative and a hypocrite. Anyways.
Spanish III nothing as usual.
Cooking, cleaned. Made omelets for my kitchen. Only if I had ketchup it would have tasted so much better.
Racquetball, worked my butt off only to lose.. I gave up so many easy points.
Starbucks with Jane Kwon.
NHS stuff.
I am soooo close to being in Pro Musica right now.. omg.
And climbing! yeahhh. Highlight of any day. Survived test 1. Just many more to come. Please help me God.
Apparently I got bigger haha. I thought I got smaller. I can never tell.
Idk how to explain it but today was just a good day.. I really enjoyed it. Like that feeling like nothing can put you down. I hope it stays for a long time to come :)

Peace

I am so scared

Today I discovered something.. and it's got me really scared.
Been praying about it. Pleaseeee.don't let it be what I think it might be.

Besides that..well crappy day. Except for one thing. hah I'm not gonna say what. It was a small thing but you'd be surprised at how the smallest things in the world can make your day. I don't want to talk about it.

mhmmm sureee.. Whatever you say man. I'm down, the question is do you really want to? not too sure.

Freaking tired as balls..

I hate waking up tired, going to bed tired, being tired all day.

been like that for four years.

When will it be over?

Peace.

Phoenix

Love them. Awesome band.. my go to relax music. and Jack Johnson and coldplay.

I'm hoping this week will be pretty relaxed.

Got a 100 on my physics test.

Did pretty bad on my calculus final.



Man seriously every time.. every freaking time. I just can't find it in me to look you in the eye. I just feel so...bleh. Don't want to talk about it, don't want to think about it. It's all a long time ago. long long long time ago.

Weekend was boring. Did nothing. Just college apps, k dramas, tv, starcraft.

Drill..mmmmm we made a move. I guess that's about it. hah I want to believe. I really do. I think I'm starting to regret one of my decisions.

Flashed 2 V6's today! haha yeahhh.

You look really chubby without makeup. just saying hah. And I thought she was cute before.

Felt really gay today for some reason lol. I woke up really happy for some reason despite getting only like 2 hours of sleep.

dubstep. dub dub dub dubstep.

You really are something different. hah.

Can't wait until Christmas break. I hope this week goes by fast.

mmm yup yup yup.

Great minds have purposes, others have wishes.
- Washington Irving

hmmmm deep quote.. very true.

peace.

Inception

I really want to watch it again.

Trying to switch back to zerg. Really freaking hard. So different from playing toss. But its a lot of fun. Been only playing against AI's to try and get used to it again.. I'm having trouble with very hard.. Only like 60% win ratio. Should be more like 99%.

Found a really good build for zerg.. My secret. and I guess I'll tell Max haha. We zerg have to stand together. Shouldn't have switched to toss.

But anyways.. Almost done with 2 more college apps. Brown and Syracuse. I really hope I get into Brown.. or even Syracuse. They both have really good programs in what I want.. Brown sociology. Pleassseee. Then I'll work really hard and get into Harvard mba program. and my life will be set and on auto pilot for the next 30 years. I'm really hoping for Brown. Please Jesus. Give me good teacher recs and help my essay to be really strong.

Can't sleep again.. Sleeping so late is such a bad habit

Thank you Michelle 아줌마 for helping me whenever. I really appreciate it. I'll make it up to you I promise. Thanks for being reassuring.

Well peace.

Espresso Beans

Ate five of them...

Now I can't sleep.

Well at least I'm making the most of my day..or night.

haha..

Time to read till I get tired.

Peace.

Power Overwhelming

I feel so overwhelmed right now.. Why did I do football? I realize if I didn't do football, I would be so much more on top of my homework and college apps.

Oh well.. It's just four more weeks.. and it will be all over. Omg please Jesus help me not to commit suicide or anything crazy while I lose my mind hahaahah. Please. Amen.

Gonna go play some tfarcrats for a bit.. peace.

Coffee

Drank my first cup of coffee in a few months. Never knew how bad caffeine was for you. I can't go to sleep haha. I don't even know why I drank coffee.. Its not like I had to stay up late or anything.. dumb.

Too much peppermint, and chocolate. I am sick of chocolate. Needed more espresso. way too sweet for coffee. But I guess that's what I get for going to Starbucks. At Starbucks, you don't pay for coffee, you pay to walk in the cafe, listen to their music, and sit in their comfy chairs while they provide you with coffee and wifi.

My hair is getting really long.

I would work on my presentation, except my book is in my car, and it is too cold to go outside hahahah. In other words, I'm too lazy.. typical me. And I probably forgot to do something important too. typical.

Banquet was good I guess. Last one. Tear. I'll definitely miss high school. Some aspects of it anyways. But I'll really miss high school. Learned a lot of stuff. And most of it, not from classes.

mmmmm..downloaded this new theme for my phone, looks freaking dope. Makes me feel badass.

I'm really excited for collge. Doing all these apps is scary and exhilarating. I really hope I get into a lot of these schools. Please Jesus, I know I haven't been the best student, but please, let them know my true self. Amen.

One thing that irritated me at banquet..

Not gonna mention names so I'll pull a Chandler

How does ________ have a ______________???? I seriously don't understand.

Yeah ________ may not __ ______________. But still.

There's a time and place for everything right? I guess its just not now. lol.

But congrats to you man. I envy you. Sort of.

Well Looks like no climbing for a couple weeks. College apps. But its more important, right?

Peace.

걷지말고 뛰어라! 런닝맨!

Running Man is one of the funnest shows in a while. Family Outing was probably one of my faves. and 1박2일. Lots of fun just watching those shows. Especially with a lot of people. Man I miss Korea so much. haha. Hopefully I get into some decent schools so I can come back this summer with some pride. some Korreeaaannuuu puuuraaaiddduuu maaddaaa paakckkaa!

Currently writing my How Jesus Treated People book report.. J wills why do you assign the most pointless things? Well I guess it only suits a pointless class haha. But going to the Linda Valley Villa was pretty interesting. I want to talk to my person more.

Fail NHS meeting today. Well not as much for everyone as for Brian. He was supposed to have a lot of stuff to show but he didn't even come. It's ok if no one shows up as long as he shows up but ehh whatever.. And I just found out today that he doesn't have a cell phone.. so I have no clue who's number it is in my phone book that I have for Brian Huggins. And I've been texting that number. haha someone must be very confused.

Peace.