Talking to the Moon

I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away
I want you back

My neighbors think I'm crazy
They don't understand
I want you back

Talking to the moon
Trying to get to you.

Bruno Mars



Man I feel like a douche.
I'm sorry..
For some reason, that's all I ever say to you..
Sorry.



Don't want to think about it right now.

Peace.

no no no

I shouldn't even think of doing it but. More fun yes? haha.

I love myself too much to die.

Climbing club is an excuse to show off. Yes I'll admit it. Along with why I am so adamant that I attend "Ladies night" at Threshold. And bring friends for free day.

I'm just too proud of myself. Is it good? or bad..

I like to think of it as confidence.

But I can be humble too.


I need to find a girlfriend.. seriously. Then I'll have things to do besides climb.

Can't wait until second semester starts. I really can't.


I hope this break goes really really really slow.

Peace.

Oh lord

man.. I'm not gonna say much about yesterday..

But definitely most fun I've had in a while.

Christmas shopping today.

Peace.

yeaahh

The more I talk to you, the more I want you back.
And I just lose track.
Of time I spend thinking, of the things we'd do
If we had been together
No matter what the weather,
I want you in my life again,
Girl, cuz, all I be sayin,
Is I miss you.

I feel dumb thinking of this shit,
I keep saying to me this can't be it.
Turn back the clock
Subtract my rocks
Give me my life back
Give me a clean track
Take away two years
Wish the sky'd turn clear.

Yup just popped in my head..

Dope day overall.

New shoes!!! :) Dragons ftw. Soooo dope. I'm just gonna be raving about them for like the next two weeks.

Tofu I love you.

Brandon's house later.... Not gonna say anything lol.

Sorry Nicole, Vivs, Ricky.

Had a nice little chat.

You are so dumb.. forreall homeboy.. you are really dumb. so dumb

Let's just wash all this away with the rain.

Peace.

Dear..

Whom I don't remember anymore.
Whose voice I cannot recollect.
Whose love I haven't felt.
Whose face is a blur in my memories.
Whom I never knew.
Whom I really never met before.

I miss you. Is it possible to miss someone you don't know? Yes it is.

God have mercy on your soul. And I pray I may see you in the future.

12/16/1996

R.I.P.
Mother.

Well ok day. Went to my three important classes, and hit up threshold.

Came back for cooking. Talked to michelle.

Ditched P.E. went to Starbucks.

Talked to Pastor Jay about climbing club! Freaking so stoked about it.. Pastor Jay you are awesome.

Rap battle after school! J-lee and Willlizzle in the houuusseee.. Slapped Exema, aka, magallanes. lol.

Drill. Did nothing. Talked to my dongseng

Elf! Sat with Sherlene, Krystal, Greg and his sister. Krystal and I started singing during the scene at the end. Freaking hilarious.

Noodle 21 with Greg and Sherlene. Risha and Omar came later. Saw Daniel. Dopetydopety dope.
Their pho isn't that good..

Peace.

Good Day

Today was a good day :)
Did ok on my Calc test.
October Sky in Physics! haha
NO GOVERNMENT. BEST FREAKING PART OF WEDNESDAY
Got into arguments with my senior person at the villa about religion with Miles.. He is so conservative and a hypocrite. Anyways.
Spanish III nothing as usual.
Cooking, cleaned. Made omelets for my kitchen. Only if I had ketchup it would have tasted so much better.
Racquetball, worked my butt off only to lose.. I gave up so many easy points.
Starbucks with Jane Kwon.
NHS stuff.
I am soooo close to being in Pro Musica right now.. omg.
And climbing! yeahhh. Highlight of any day. Survived test 1. Just many more to come. Please help me God.
Apparently I got bigger haha. I thought I got smaller. I can never tell.
Idk how to explain it but today was just a good day.. I really enjoyed it. Like that feeling like nothing can put you down. I hope it stays for a long time to come :)

Peace

I am so scared

Today I discovered something.. and it's got me really scared.
Been praying about it. Pleaseeee.don't let it be what I think it might be.

Besides that..well crappy day. Except for one thing. hah I'm not gonna say what. It was a small thing but you'd be surprised at how the smallest things in the world can make your day. I don't want to talk about it.

mhmmm sureee.. Whatever you say man. I'm down, the question is do you really want to? not too sure.

Freaking tired as balls..

I hate waking up tired, going to bed tired, being tired all day.

been like that for four years.

When will it be over?

Peace.

Phoenix

Love them. Awesome band.. my go to relax music. and Jack Johnson and coldplay.

I'm hoping this week will be pretty relaxed.

Got a 100 on my physics test.

Did pretty bad on my calculus final.



Man seriously every time.. every freaking time. I just can't find it in me to look you in the eye. I just feel so...bleh. Don't want to talk about it, don't want to think about it. It's all a long time ago. long long long time ago.

Weekend was boring. Did nothing. Just college apps, k dramas, tv, starcraft.

Drill..mmmmm we made a move. I guess that's about it. hah I want to believe. I really do. I think I'm starting to regret one of my decisions.

Flashed 2 V6's today! haha yeahhh.

You look really chubby without makeup. just saying hah. And I thought she was cute before.

Felt really gay today for some reason lol. I woke up really happy for some reason despite getting only like 2 hours of sleep.

dubstep. dub dub dub dubstep.

You really are something different. hah.

Can't wait until Christmas break. I hope this week goes by fast.

mmm yup yup yup.

Great minds have purposes, others have wishes.
- Washington Irving

hmmmm deep quote.. very true.

peace.

Inception

I really want to watch it again.

Trying to switch back to zerg. Really freaking hard. So different from playing toss. But its a lot of fun. Been only playing against AI's to try and get used to it again.. I'm having trouble with very hard.. Only like 60% win ratio. Should be more like 99%.

Found a really good build for zerg.. My secret. and I guess I'll tell Max haha. We zerg have to stand together. Shouldn't have switched to toss.

But anyways.. Almost done with 2 more college apps. Brown and Syracuse. I really hope I get into Brown.. or even Syracuse. They both have really good programs in what I want.. Brown sociology. Pleassseee. Then I'll work really hard and get into Harvard mba program. and my life will be set and on auto pilot for the next 30 years. I'm really hoping for Brown. Please Jesus. Give me good teacher recs and help my essay to be really strong.

Can't sleep again.. Sleeping so late is such a bad habit

Thank you Michelle 아줌마 for helping me whenever. I really appreciate it. I'll make it up to you I promise. Thanks for being reassuring.

Well peace.

Espresso Beans

Ate five of them...

Now I can't sleep.

Well at least I'm making the most of my day..or night.

haha..

Time to read till I get tired.

Peace.

Power Overwhelming

I feel so overwhelmed right now.. Why did I do football? I realize if I didn't do football, I would be so much more on top of my homework and college apps.

Oh well.. It's just four more weeks.. and it will be all over. Omg please Jesus help me not to commit suicide or anything crazy while I lose my mind hahaahah. Please. Amen.

Gonna go play some tfarcrats for a bit.. peace.

Coffee

Drank my first cup of coffee in a few months. Never knew how bad caffeine was for you. I can't go to sleep haha. I don't even know why I drank coffee.. Its not like I had to stay up late or anything.. dumb.

Too much peppermint, and chocolate. I am sick of chocolate. Needed more espresso. way too sweet for coffee. But I guess that's what I get for going to Starbucks. At Starbucks, you don't pay for coffee, you pay to walk in the cafe, listen to their music, and sit in their comfy chairs while they provide you with coffee and wifi.

My hair is getting really long.

I would work on my presentation, except my book is in my car, and it is too cold to go outside hahahah. In other words, I'm too lazy.. typical me. And I probably forgot to do something important too. typical.

Banquet was good I guess. Last one. Tear. I'll definitely miss high school. Some aspects of it anyways. But I'll really miss high school. Learned a lot of stuff. And most of it, not from classes.

mmmmm..downloaded this new theme for my phone, looks freaking dope. Makes me feel badass.

I'm really excited for collge. Doing all these apps is scary and exhilarating. I really hope I get into a lot of these schools. Please Jesus, I know I haven't been the best student, but please, let them know my true self. Amen.

One thing that irritated me at banquet..

Not gonna mention names so I'll pull a Chandler

How does ________ have a ______________???? I seriously don't understand.

Yeah ________ may not __ ______________. But still.

There's a time and place for everything right? I guess its just not now. lol.

But congrats to you man. I envy you. Sort of.

Well Looks like no climbing for a couple weeks. College apps. But its more important, right?

Peace.

걷지말고 뛰어라! 런닝맨!

Running Man is one of the funnest shows in a while. Family Outing was probably one of my faves. and 1박2일. Lots of fun just watching those shows. Especially with a lot of people. Man I miss Korea so much. haha. Hopefully I get into some decent schools so I can come back this summer with some pride. some Korreeaaannuuu puuuraaaiddduuu maaddaaa paakckkaa!

Currently writing my How Jesus Treated People book report.. J wills why do you assign the most pointless things? Well I guess it only suits a pointless class haha. But going to the Linda Valley Villa was pretty interesting. I want to talk to my person more.

Fail NHS meeting today. Well not as much for everyone as for Brian. He was supposed to have a lot of stuff to show but he didn't even come. It's ok if no one shows up as long as he shows up but ehh whatever.. And I just found out today that he doesn't have a cell phone.. so I have no clue who's number it is in my phone book that I have for Brian Huggins. And I've been texting that number. haha someone must be very confused.

Peace.

Seriously mang

I seriously just have one wish..

Jesus you already know.

Please?

Counting down to New Years! forget Christmas. It's just fake warmth. When December is over people act just as mean as they were before. People in general, not everyone.

I like New Years because it feels like a fresh start. A new beginning. Feel alive again.

maybe TAO? haha.

Going to sleep early.

Forget homework tonight.

Just want to sleep a little longer because NO 0 PERIOD TOMORROW! haha

gotta squeeze in as much sleep as I can now that school's started again.

peace

Shasta Fabella..

Since I have like no way of contacting you anymore haha.. if you read my blog still, Happy Birthday! Finally 18! I hope you're doing well and everything is going alright for you. Hope you enjoyed your day and happy birthday again. Miss you and your smile lots. Hopefully I'll get to see you sometime before the end of this year.

-leejon



mmmm finished everything with UC, College English. Now just College English, Government and Christian Mission. yay.

peace.

Finish Line

whooo finally done with my UC stuff. Just need to edit a little tomorrow and I'll be done for good. Just only like 7 more essays to write. Fun fun fun fun fun.. I seriously hate college english right now. It takes up so much time. geez..

Today I learned of the true importance of good writing and a good essay. The personal essay is what truly sets people apart. The numbers can all be the same but the essay will always be different. It gives insight into the applicants life and thoughts.

Nervous.

Peace.

fressshhh

Daaaaayyyyuuummm..why you so fresh? gotta give me some lessons gee.

You bug me man though. Whatevss.. hah after I read that one text. I couldn't believe it was you. I can't even see you saying that shit. Man.. you seriously let people get to your head man. hah pick yourself up man.

On a more positive note:

Chandler Yen
Whom I look up to so much.
I don't know exactly what
But all I have is respect
Love you and keep doing your shit.
I would write you a song if I was
good enough to. but yeah man.
Mad respect for you. Just felt
like I had to put it out there.



hmmm maybe next time, I'll have time, yeah? Safe trip back.

Timothy Delaghetto. Deep stuff. Love your videos. Well even though they're not that funny anymore, you're an awesome dude. Love to meet you sometime.


I need to write, write, write, write, write, write, write, write, write, write...

nahh.

sleep for now.

and relax..

리랙스...

peace.

ugh

I feel sick right now..

Should not have had tea.

Lazy day. Slept for most of it.

Drank two red bulls for I have no clue why. it was 2 for $4! why not? right?

haha soooo hyper right now..

I'm like shaking hahah

mmmmm...

yeahhh.

TO DO LIST:

1. UC APP!!!!!
2. College English textual analysis paper!
3. College English hw
4. Gov stuff
5. Other college applications
6. Practice violin!
7. Find a girlfriend. aha joke.

Need to get that shit done!

peace.

huh?

I had the..weirdest? errr eye-opening? dream ever. Why do you always have to haunt me? and make me feel miserable. I'm sure everything is fine now but still.. omg. Seriously creeped me out. And I thought it was real.

Thanksgiving was good. Didn't eat too much.. I don't like that feeling of being so full you can't get up. Just ate enough. Lunch was bad, Dinner was good. My family needs to learn how to cook haha. Well this year's was better than the last two or three, having to cook myself dinner by myself or eating leftovers. So I'm thankful for that.

Didn't go Black Friday shopping. Too tired from the turkey haha. Almost fell asleep at Hannah's house. Kinda wish I did though.

peace.

V.

You have no right to be mad at me.

You really don't..

Waste of a day.

Why do I do this to myself? hmm oh well, I still have a few days left..

mmmmm la la la.. la la la la la.

신민아 is soooo cute..and pretty..



Especially in "My Girlfriend is a Nine-tailed Fox." omg..so cute haha



And her..she's just gorgeous. 30 something but ... omg.. just marry me please 박시연 씨.

But my all time fave..and my obsession...



idk it's just something about her.. even though she's not the prettiest girl ever.. I think she's bomb.

다라.. if I could go on a date with any girl, it'd be her.



Thanksgiving tomorrow! Remember to be thankful for all the stuff you have, because even if you don't think you have much, you have a lot of stuff other people would be jealous of. So remember to count your blessings.

Peace.

Pho

Is where everything happens. Man freaking dope times. So much fun.

Woke up today, practiced my violin for an hour or so. Played some black ops. Made lunch, practiced again and then went to my lesson. Came back, went to threshold. The usual stuff.

Sat in Boba for like three hours just talking. Me Brandon, Matt, and Alex. Flo came later then we bounced.

Nicole is down, yay.

Almost done with UC application. Almost. Finish probably tomorrow or Thursday.

I'm seriously considering just going to UCR for Threshold..

Gotta cut back on tea.

I kinda miss hanging out with you. The randomness and spontaneity.

I need to hang out with you, its been forever since I even saw you.

I need to connect with people at school more.

Looking forward to this Thursday for some reason, I don't really know why.

Peace.

Urban Outfitters..

I think they stole my money..

Bought some clothes. Returned them at the store. They told me the money was put back into my checking acount.. but its not there.. And my account doesn't even say anything about anything from Urban for the last three weeks. Kinda gay. I really like this store so I'm not gonna get mad at them right now, but, if they're gonna screw up like this, I really don't know if I want to shop there anymore. And they screwed up on my order.

Protein

Decided to start trying protein supplements. Day one of using it. Let's hope I see some difference. The only thing I felt was I felt dehydrated during my workout.. Oh well.

Spam..after spam..after spam.

Can't wait for Thanksgiving Break! omg. Time to rest, work, and think, and clean everything up and start up fresh again. Please give me the strength to continue on God. Thank you. I really need your help right now. My mind is so weak. Please give me your strength, in Jesus' name, Amen.

I want a new car!

My Hyundai is a piece of crap..

There are a lot of crazy drivers on the freeway at night, around 10 o'clock. Speeding at like 90mph cutting people off, tail gating people, everything. Scary.

Starcraft tournament!

blah blah blah blah blah.

Bern I need my shoes!

peace.

Early one

Felt the need to blog after a short discussion.

JC Blogger welcomes you.

Well don't really have anything to blog about though..

Never stay out late on a school night. Not a good idea. But it was well worth it :)

hah girl you got swag..

Ms. Taylor tore my paper apart.. not literally, figuratively.

Oh well.

College Essays. Yay.

blahblahblahblahblahblahblah

You already know..like seriously I'm sure you know.

Peace.

Snickers

Possibly one of the best candy bars ever? I think its in the running. Although it would be a close match up with Twix. Those two candy bars hold a special spot in my heart.

Senior year really isn't what I hoped it to be. It's worse than last year. And last year sucked balls. Well only towards the end but yeah.

Didn't go climbing today. Maybe I'll go tomorrow.. But probably not. Friday will probably be the next time I go. I think I'm gonna be super tired this week..

Calculus test
Physics test
Government test

You should always take risks in life. Why? Would you want a life where everything is predictable? no. why? because that would be boring. When you take risks, do something unexpected, out of the ordinary, different, unique, strange, you change things up. You make things more interesting for yourself and for others. Miss a few hw assignments on purpose so you make your grade drop. Then try to get an A. That's way more fun and challenging than just doing all your junk all the time.

Makes things a little more interesting..

Well time to read. Haven't done so in a couple weeks.

Peace.

omg

Really boring weekend..

Friday. Threshold. Teatime x3! plus bern/brandon's place after. Had a mini kickback for like an hour lol

Saturday. Woke up at 1. Got black ops. Played all afternoon. Ate dinner. Went to sleep.

Sunday. Woke up at 10. Played black ops all morning. Played starcraft 2 for a little. Played black ops again. Level 25 I think right now? Signed on to Starcraft 2 again. Got promoted to gold after one game in silver. Then went on a losing streak. Super frustrating. Left. Went to go eat. came back. Started my paper. Almost done right now. Played a little sc2 to take a break. Won 4 in a row in 1v1. Then went on another losing streak in 2v2s. lame.

I think I'll prestige at least twice during break. Please give us a double xp weekend or something treyarch.

Well gotta finish my paper soon.

This weather is just.. weird.

Can't wait for next weekend. and last week before Thanksgiving break! :) please go by fast. please please please.. I am so sick of school right now. I need some downtime to sort everything out. I don't feel in control at the moment. And I don't like that because yes I am a control freak. But who isn't? hypocrites.

oh man I just had too much fun on Friday for one weekend. Next weekend will be even better. yay for Flo.

I wish I would get promoted to Plat already. I think my play is pretty solid.. I have no trouble against gold players. I lose a few here and there but I'm almost 20 wins over losses. It's like 17 or 18 wins over losses.

Peace

idk

what what what what what..

abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz

good bye

just needed to do this.

habit.

peace.

IV.

Felt like some Chipotle today. Burrito bowl with tortilla on the side. Usual stuff.

I know what's been missing in my life... Music. Now that I don't have an iPod its so weird. Listening to the same songs everyday. All day.

A copy of a copy of a copy. Everything seems so far away.

I know this because Tyler knows this.

Random aside but whatever haha. I freaking love Fight Club. I can't say that enough. I'm thinking of writing one of my college essays on it but I don't know how that will look because it screams out against modern society and says fuck the world I'm going to do my own thing.

I have tried installing League of Legends three times. It is not working for me for some odd reason. It tries to download this one patch and says the whole thing is corrupted.

Coldplay is so good.

I regret selling my iPod. memories, music, and Doodle Jump.. ohh doodle jump. I don't get why it's like $4 on the android market while it's only $1 on itunes. lame

I think I took a huge blow after my second SAT scores came out. I only feel alive at Threshold. But even today when I went, I felt so lame.

Government test tomorrow.. Yay.

I really wish La Sierra college days weren't required. It is going to be such a waste of time. It's a good idea, but it shouldn't be required.

Sleep in peace when the day is done
And this old world is a new world
And a bold world
For me

Feeling Good - Muse

I'm just rambling on.

Peace.

You change, you change

1. I miss Dain Lee lol. Enough said.

2. You changed.

3. I'm pretty sure I did too.

Football party was pretty fun. I'm gonna miss hanging with some of those guys. I won't see them as much. 4th String safety after nobody. That was like the funniest thing I've ever heard in a while. Along with Dan the Man getting punched in the stomach and dislocating his leg while falling. lol.

Safety:
1. Tim
2. Chris
3. Nobody
4. Matt

ohh man.

Glad that I got to meet and know Josh and Doug. Two awesome people.

Even though football took up a lot of time and I couldn't wait until the season was over during like the last three weeks, it was a lot of fun at the same time. Especially Fresno tournament. Now I have no more exciting trips to look forward to for the rest of the year. Just one long road to graduation. The next three months are gonna suck crap. But afterwards, I'm gonna be the happiest person ever. I'd be happy to even just go to UCR. Threshold right by, all my friends will still be there. I'll know the area super well, and its an ok school. So it's not that bad. I'm not too worried about my future. Whatever happens, I know that it was meant to happen, and that God will lead me through it.

I'm getting pretty freaking good at starcraft 2.. Gold players are too easy. Bump me up to Plat! The only time I have trouble is against protoss.. ughh I probably go like 50-50 against toss. But zerg and terran is more like 70-30 on a good day. I've also been playing against a lot of toss and terran lately. Not much zerg..

I really want to take a week off school. My body is telling me its that time of year again.. Thanksgiving break! get to catch up on my sleep. I hate 0 period. I hate it so much. Especially the fact that its college english sucks. I hate waking up tired every morning, and repeating this cycle of being tired every day, every week. I never feel rested.

Well at least after thanksgiving break, stuff speeds up a lot. Two weeks after is christmas break. And after that is end of semester, then yeah, it's already the new year. February is a short month, spring break, and then bam, jr/sr banquet, drill comp, whole bunch of stuff going on and then graduation. :) I've been waiting for that moment my whole high school career. Please come quicker. I am so ready to leave.

In a way I feel as my life is like my gas tank. It's never full, and always close to being empty. I just get so happy even when it goes half way. And I try all that I can to save the gas but it never works and it just lasts for the same amount of time. But I think that it lasted longer. I'm always so close to empty. Putting in just a couple bucks every 30 or so miles to get home, school, lesson, threshold, mall, wherever. It kinda feels like that right now.. Ohhh would I like a full tank of gas. Haven't had one since.. May, when we got back from camp out last year.

I really liked the start of Junior year. It was so much fun. Actually junior year was a lot of fun up until the last three months of school when I was so burnt out and tired of trying. I think I'm still in that mind set and I need to change that.

My eye is twitching now.. must mean I'm tired. Should go to sleep. Lies. lies lies. So tired of lies.

Calculus homework sits undone on my bed. Screaming at me to finish it. My ears have grown deaf to those cries and my thoughts immune.

There is a book I really want to read though. I will. In a bit. I think I'll sleep around 2 today. Besides My body isn't used to the time change and I'll still feel like an extra hour.

I want to hit up either bishop, jtree, or black mountain during thanksgiving weeek.. gonna be freaking dope.

peace.

Environmentalist

Are you one? I'm not sure about my self though. I think I'm neutral. I mean I'm all for it and stuff, but I'm not at advocate nor a zealot. But I'm not apathetic about it as well. I'll do my part, but I'm not gonna go around making people do theirs. Issues like this, it's better if people choose themselves to support the cause, not if people force them or rally them. It has to be 100% personal choice. This along with many other things in life.. but people never learn.

When people are oppressed, they rise up against you, and will overthrow the status quo screaming for a different future, begging, hoping that what they have now will not continue into their futures.

Random rant.. Made me think about it because of a new wallet I bought. Called a "Mighty Wallet." It's made of 100% recycled paper and is water proof and tear proof. Well as long as you don't take a scissor to it or try to rip it. The design is a 33mm film strip and it looks dope. Could use a little more slots for cards and ID and stuff but I'm happy with it.

Wow just got super distracted.. Ended up on youtube for like half an hour.

So I just saw a comment on a video of my friend playing the violin, yeah the usual haters/jealous people, and the people congratulating him blah blah blah. Not that important. But this one comment just pissed me off. So this guy by the name of detevtive66 or something, claimed that classical music is the least creative form of music ever. Ok so that is the most obvious and most uneducated statement ever. If you agree with that, then either you don't know classical music, or you're just dumb. The guy says that he studies at the Berklee school of music and studies jazz theory and stuff.

Yeah Jazz is awesome. Its all about rythm and beat and improvisation. I don't know too much about it so I can' say much, but it's pretty cool..

And he goes on to say that classical music the least creative form of music, all one has to do is follow the black notes, doesn't require interpretation, or any input from the artist other than playing the piece.

That doesn't make any sense at all.. and I could go on for a while why it doesn't.

But if that were true, why would people still be playing classical music even today? I mean its over run by all the crappy mainstream music out right now but still. People have invested in that stuff for 400+ years. Every time the piece is played its different. There are so many different interpretations of different pieces. Go listen to one classical song. A solo work like a concerto or a sonata. Then go listen to multiple people play. I guarantee they will all play it differently. But yeah I'd rather not get too excited about this right now..

Some people are just..hah so ignorant and stupid. The world would be better off without them.

What if there was a purging of the world and only the smartest, most fit, and well rounded people were allowed to survive? The next two generations might not be much different, but like by the third generation, it would be a race of super people. Elites. And the world would be better no?

That would be really cruel and heartless and cold, but there should be sacrifices to advance civilization I think. Why should we support those that cannot support themselves? It should be a free for all. Social darwinism. Only the best will survive. And well like a little average to the best will survive. Just cut the dead weight. That's what I think. Like on a sports team, you care about all your team members and you like them. But some of them are just dead weight. They drag you down. So you should cut them loose.

I was told, if your friends cause to make bad decisions and they deter you from your goals, maybe they're not your friends. hmmm interesting. uhhh so..idk paradoxical in a way. I'd like to believe in friendships. They're really, all I have. Don't really have family. But even in the friends department I'm lacking. I don't even know what happened. Well I guess a lot of them went to college. '09, '10. and whatever. I have Threshold fam.

I'm glad prop 19 did not pass. That would just have been retarded. It would have decreased trafficking? yeah right. Decrease power in drug lords? yeah right. More like make them more powerful. They would all be fighting for a monopoly on the weed market. I agree that it would have increased state budget and revenue. But not all at once. Maybe in like 10 years. But by then, how much would have changed in the drug world? Are they going to make it available at local stores like wal mart? How are they going to do it? And it would still be illegal by federal law. So California legalizing marijuana would not have been that big of a deal.

Began reading. Everything makes sense now. It's just like taking me back and showing me how wrong I was about everything. Well lots of things are clearer now.

Really hungry right now. There's no food at home..I hate it when it's like that. Too bad it's like every single day now because my dad never goes grocery shopping anymore. If I had a couple hundred bucks every week I would go for him, but I don't. Always having to eat out sucks. Costs a lot. I'd rather eat at home. When he does go grocery shopping, what does he buy? ice cream, chips, ramen, and rice. fantastic. fucking fantastic. Buy some real food please? Like ingredients to cook with so we can make food? god so frustrating. I tell him, but never remembers or listens. Can't wait till I get out. I will come back and I will fix you up a nice, home cooked full on meal.

I liked it during the summer when there was a lot of free time for all of us. We always had a crap load of stuff at home to make food with. It was good. But now so busy. I see my dad like three times a week. Monday, Tuesday, Sunday. Other times he comes home after like 11. And I'm either sleeping, out, or studying in my room.

I feel bad for my brother but he has Starcraft 2 and his friends. So that's good. Gives him something to do.

Banquet announcement on Friday was terrible! omg.. It was confusing, had nothing to do with theme of the banquet, didn't even try to hint at the location. It was just terrible. But the place looks really nice. It looks REALLY nice. debating whether it would be worth $55 though. I could go and spend time with friends, but I could do that for free. Make memories, but I could also do that for free at some other place. Doing probably more exciting things than eating dinner while watching a couple of magicians. But it is my senior year.. hmmm choices choices choices.

I kinda wish I cared about something other than my self or my future. But the truth is I really don't. If its not in my interest, I probably wouldn't do it. But then again, everyone is the same. whatever.

This was a long blog.

Peace.

omg Chandler Yen

You read my fucking mind I kid you not.. We will remain on blogger. I'm only going to switch when we both decide together. Which will never happen.

I also have been addicted to Arizona Green Tea with ginseng and honey. One can everyday. I have like 10+cans in my trash in my room, and like 4+ on my desk because I can't fit it in my trash and I'm too lazy to take it out right now.

ugh totally unproductive day. gb was alright.. Didn't really enjoy playing to get placed in bronze and pretty much trying to play 2v3. oh well. It was still fun though.

uhhh watched Code Geass for a couple hours. Awesome anime. It's like psychological thriller/suspense/mind blowing/awesome/yeah. Japanese.

Hit up thresh for a few hours and helped Wilson start climbing! whoo. Another person to climb with. Chilled with the usual thresh people.. Brandon, Bern, Tony, Jose, Alex, Kirsten, Mike, Greg, Ronan, jd, blablablablablabla. Threshold family right there. I'm gonna miss them all so much after I graduate.. I'm seriously considering staying in this area just for threshold. Not only because its a great climbing gym, but the atmosphere in there is just awesome. Every time I walk in, its like a party in there. I can always count on seeing someone I know there and if not just meet new people who like the same stuff I do and usually share same opinions and ideas about life.

I love Mr. Bancarz. No joke. He is awesome. Thank you so much for believing in me and giving me a second chance.

Feels like a Friday..

Peace

Oh bugger

Oh geez.

I may not be able to get myself out of this one. But I will.

Lesson learned for sure.

Well I don't know if You will help me on this, but I believe in You.

Need to just rest up..

Yes

Just got done with Calculus homework! so happy. It feels good to finish stuff, especially if its before they're actually due. I could get used to this feeling. I should have realized this years ago instead of procrastinating throughout high school. Oh well, never too late right? I still have four years of college to use this new found discovery, and whatever professional school I decide to go into. sweet. Test tomorrow, gonna review a little more and then I should be good to go.


Super tired right now though.. I really don't want to go to school tomorrow, well I just don't want to wake up at like 6:30. I wouldn't mind if school started at like 2 o'clock. I just hate waking up early. I just need one day to recover and I'll be all good.


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Tournament is over now, and so is football season. I will definitely miss it, it was all a lot of fun. It just took up too much time for me and made it hard for me to balance so many things at once. Violin, Climbing, Football, SAT, School, college app, Calculus, College English, family stuff, also the fact that its usually just me home alone doesn't help a lot either. Well I guess this is what the real world is like. Just me and myself. Lots of good memories with football. Step Brothers. Petey. Petey. Petey. Peach. Dan the Man. Papa Bear. OH! Chicken. Ask Dante. How big can her house be, she's Mexican. Fun fun fun.

Red Bull is amazing. I probably would have fell asleep right after my game if I hadn't drank two right away. That stuff kept me up and gave me a little more energy. Highly recommend.

Well now that the season is over, I really have no excuse for not getting stuff done. I just really need to focus up and get things done. I've been slacking a lot in school.. Well actually not really.. idk how I have like 2 C's. Except Spanish III..which is retarded. College English I can fix. Math, if I work hard, I can bring from B to A. And I think everything else I should have an A.

College apps are gonna be a pain.. UC starts accepting apps starting today. Need to hurry and finish my personal statement.. I wish I had some kind of help with all this stuff. Fast. Maybe this weekend?

I need to finish my traffic school. ugh. Stupid cops.

I have a ton of chocolate from those fundraising things or whatever from Pizza Hut lol. Just sitting on my kitchen table. nice.

I have 3 cans of Arizona Green Tea and one of those big bottles on my desk with two cans of red bull. Nice.

Haven't done these in a while

1. haha I never should have doubted you, I totally agree right now. Douche :)

2. You are perhaps one of two people I will never understand.

3. When did you get so pretty? haha

uhhh guess that's it..

Peace.

Never

Felt so tired before.

But insomia..

Did bad at the comp. I climbed really dumb. Should have finished working intermediate problems before working on the advanced/open ones. Tired myself out and couldn't do anything else. But its ok. It was a lot of fun. Way worth $30.

Football, ehhh it was ok..

Larry needs not to play..has no clue what you're doing man. Even yesterday they were just eating up your zone..

But good job otherwise.

Failed senior game because offense couldn't put up any points and we got a safety. lame.

This is probably the worst I've seen Loma Linda Varsity football. We've only lost one game so far, but its hard to believe looking at the way we play.

I wish I went to Josh's house but I'm just too tired. I'd probably fall asleep on the wheel.

A guy made an illegal u-turn and almost crashed into me.. I swear I have the worst luck while I drive. It's not that I'm a bad driver, people do stupid shit, and I just happen to be there.. Wrong place at the wrong time. Well I guess its because I'm clumsy haha

Ok.

Night

peace.

Threshold

Comp tomorrow.

Excited.

Stoked.

Ready to climb all day.

haha it's gonna be fun.

Why..

SAT results came out today. I scored lower than I did last time.. I had set myself really high goals. I was really disappointed and pissed off at myself. And at collegeboard a little, but mainly at myself. So ridiculous.. I can't express how annoyed I was.

Pretend you're a really good tennis player. You practice a lot, work your butt off everyday, and sweat buckets after buckets. Now you have a really big match coming. You've played him before, you beat him, but it was really close, to the point where it was down to a bad line call or a missed serve or something. And you've decided this time to wipe the floor with that guy, this time, it wouldn't be near as close as last time. Your coach is constantly telling you that it will be easy, and that you were just having a bad game last time. And that this guy is nothing compared to you at 100%. You believe his words, you feed off of it, and it becomes your mantra and your mentality for 10 months. You believe it, it becomes your life, and it becomes more than words, it becomes a parasite, living in your brain. Feeding you ideas and lies, but at that point and time, you had no clue it was lies.

The day of the game comes, and he gets to serve first. Oh its alright, I've practiced receiving serves a lot, I'm pretty comfortable with that. He serves, bam. The ball disappears for a moment and you only see it after you hear the crack of the ball hitting the court. He gets the first point. 15 - love. You eventually catch up and beat his serving game, but close. The match goes on and on and on. Set after set after set. Its the final set, and he's serving again. The serves that you thought you practiced for feel completely different now. You feel as though you're playing someone totally different. Then you take a closer look at him. He's not sweating, he's not trying to catch his breath, his shirt isn't dripping from the perspiration, he looks calm, but you see a slight smirk. And then you realize it, he's just been going easy from the beginning. And now you realize that you truly had no chance at beating this guy. And you also learn that you only won last time because he had a sprained ankle.

He beats you easily on the 6th set. You score nothing on him. 45 -love. How pathetic. You walk off the court, people come up to you, try to cheer you up. Nothing works. Because you know, deep inside, that the game you played wasn't, at all, a game. It was a scam. A predetermined event of fate, schemed against you by conspirators unknown. You try to find something take your anger and disappointment out on, find nothing. Then you see something that you should have done long ago, train even harder. And there you find your new source of inspiration. You realize that you're still a good player, you were just cheated this time. You feed yourself new lies to make yourself feel better, but in the end, it's all where you began.

Struggling. struggling against the waves and motions of life. Trying to make a name for yourself in a world where 6 billion others are trying to do the same. Where only a thousand know your name, and maybe only half of that know you personally, and only a quarter you see frequently and an eighth of that, you might be close with. You realize you're worth nothing, your actions mean nothing, the consequences for your actions mean nothing. You keep telling your self that to justify whatever you want to do.

But even through all that, your eyes open and see that there's only two directions you can go in life. Forward, or death. And death would be too sweet of a departure for me and too easy. There has to be a challenge. Besides, I still have a shitload of stuff I want to do.

Been reading fight club all day. Freaking awesome book. I think I have found a new interest in reading. This is what I should have been doing three years ago, not worrying about my clothes or friends or girls or what I'm going to eat. I should have been reading and reading and reading. Only now do I see my mistakes. If I could turn back time.. But it's not too late to start. I have a pile of books that I bought that I plan to read in the next couple weeks.

Peace.

Last Week

Last week of football!

SAT scores on Thursday.. so nervous. I really need to score higher than my last one. I'm pretty confident but there is always that what if in the back of my head.

mmmkk.

peace.

Things I love

1. Finding money in my pockets
2. Taking a sip from a can of whatever you were drinking from that you thought was empty but still had a good amount of beverage left in.
3. A full tank of gas
4. Clean underwear
5. Smell of fresh laundry
6. A really good book or movie, one that makes you think.
7. Sleep
8. Free time
9. Brushing my teeth.
10. Taking a dump.
11. Meeting interesting new people.
12. Rocks..
13. Wikipedia and google.
14. Good music
15. Finding new music.. haven't had the time to do that recently
16. Classical music
17. Violin
18. Drawing or doodling.. I should probably finish my soldier picture but I haven't seen my teacher in two years.. awkward
19. Something original. But is anything original?
20. napping in class
21. Sitting, sipping coffee, contemplating life, and listening to music, all at once.
22. Shopping
23. going for a drive when it's rainy or cold. I dunno I like driving in the rain, especially at night.
24. good food.. Japanese, Italian, Korean, Thai, Vietnamese.
25. Korea

ehhh not in any particular order. 25 felt like a good number. I like the number 5.

well maybe a game or two of starcraft and off to bed!

Tomorrow: EDIT COLLEGE ENGLISH PAPER TILL I DIE. I need to get an A..

aight

Peace everybodies.

Rain.

It was raining pretty hard earlier this afternoon. Lots of thunder. There was this one thunder that was dragged out for like 15 seconds. It was pretty scary.

I felt like blogging but I really don't have anything interesting to say.

Newbury tournament was retarded. But Newbury game on Saturday night was fun even though we lost. They deserved to win. We just made too many mistakes and they didn't make as many. That's pretty much all it came down to. I still think we're better.

Don't you just hate those texts that you don't know how to reply to?

Bored.. Just sitting in my room.. doing nothing. Should probably start writing my paper for Christian Mission class and finishing my Calculus homework. Maybe in a little bit.

Christian Mission is the worst class ever and a waste of time and your money. DO NOT TAKE IT. EVER. You don't learn anything.

ok bye

School

ugh...lots of dumb papers right now..

Finally!

I finally am able to play Starcraft 2! It's been like three months since it came out but it's all good. It's going to take me a while to catch up to all the good players out there already. Got placed in silver. A little disappointed. Could have gone 4-1 except idk. He had tanks and marauders and marines and vikings.. I had hydra, roach, baneling, infestor, mutalisks. Didn't really work out for me. Should have won that match up but..ehh.. mis micro. And not paying attention to my hydras. Forgot how devastating tanks are against them.

Pretty decent day I guess.. Survey thing during fifth was the most retarded thing ever.

You know what I'm going to do right now..

Peace

BofA

I hate you.

SC2

Is the game of the decade. I like brood war better by like a little bit. Probably just because I'm a little more used to it but SC2 is freaking awesome.

Also everyone be looking out for PBJStarcraft, coming up pretty soon. BE READIES!

SAT

Is tomorrow. Yay..four hours here I come. I'm actually pretty excited for it for some reason.

Stop being a bitch and man up.

Aight

Good night and good luck to everyone tomorrow and this weekend.

Peace.

Popping bottles in the ice, like a blizzard.

Well this is new. Decided to try blogging on my phone and using the android keyboard rather than the swype keyboard.. I actually like is better. Way easier to type. Yeah the swype thing is pretty cool but I like this standard a lot better. Now im using the samsung keyboard.. Ehh android one is way better. But swype is just so much faster. I'm torn between keyboards..swype is fast, android is accurate and samsung is well..it lets me type in korean? Lol I think I'm sticking with the swype keyboard for now.

Ok day. Game was very bad.

You are a really interesting person. I don't know what to make of you. Very interesting.

Boxer is back! I'm rooting for you.

Need to study for calculus test tomorrow. SAT on Sunday. And free after that. Thank god for a three day weekend.

Guess that's it.

.Peace.

Loneliness

For some odd reason I've been feeling really lonely lately and sad and depressed. Oh well just one of those phases.

Oh really productive drill practice. I really like tim. As a person, and drill member and as a friend. Good job everyone.

driving to and from stater bros. Made me think of this:

I've always wanted to go grocery shopping with a girl for food. Ingredients to a recipe then go back home with her and cook with her/for her. eat the meal then go for a drive in the night. While its raining and chilly. Come home heat up some hot chocolate and make some popcorn and fall asleep on the couch while watching a movie together with the girl on your shoulder. Awww how cute. Wake up early before the sunrise, go jog with her and go to the top of a big hill and watch the sunrise. Haha maybe I'm just weird.

Oh well time for hw and SAT.

Chandler Yen! I'm getting a laptop soon! you know what that means...

Peace.

Look at me now.

Fresno tournament this past weekend. Lots of fun. Bonding and winning games. 4-0. got closer to a lot more people. Hopefully I don't play this Thursday. My hamstring really needs to rest from last week. It's so tight I can't even do some ab workouts lol.

School is so boring. I have no incentive to go..i only go for calculus and college english. Because we don't do anything in any other class.

went to threshold today instead of studying for the physics test. Way worth it. Get stronger, meet new people. Its way more useful then one physics test. Supposed to be ladies night but no ladies tonight.

I really wish..

I have an urge to watch (500) days of summer again.

I think I've watched that movie like once every two weeks or something like that. So addicted to that movie.just something about it,i can't help but be entertained and absorbed every time I watch it.

Fuck early decision. not enough time right now. Gonna start UC applications next week after SAT this sunday. I really need to get at least 2250. Aiming for 2350. well since a lot of people are taking it, it should be easier for me to score higher.

I wonder what you think..

Idk what to do after football season is over. Well.. I guess drill haha.

I think the worst pain in the world is solitude. Its the only pain you can't share. That feeling of separation, that no one gives a shit. But it its the truth. In the grand scheme of things, no one cares what you do, who you are, only what you have. Gotta find the people that actually do care for WHO you are though.

I'm not even tired anymore. Climbing got me so pumped.

Someone find me a lady friend.

Someone that's cute, confident, funny, likes to laugh, has a nice smile, doesn't mind trying new things, not too tall or short, not too long or short hair, just in between, dark or brown hair, knows how to dress or looks cute in whatever she decides to wear. Has a hobby or passionate about something, school, singing, dancing, biking, running, whatever, just not someone who sits around and does nothing all day. Has a good taste in music, or like similar stuff as I do. Can cook somewhat. Can pull off glasses. Doesn't wear too much makeup, and still looks pretty without, or even prettier. Someone who can tie their hair back and show off their face. someone I can sit and talk to for hours about random stuff, like favorite fruit, pineapples, tv, phones, grass, the shape of the clouds, the moon, anything. Someone that's chill. Isn't confined to her cell phone. Doesn't mind just lying in the grass and talking. and Asian.

I guess to narrow it down: cute, has a hobby, chill, likes new things, easy to talk to, not too much make up, asian, not too tall. sick. Now to fix the gdlm part.

Girls seriously do not like me. Every single time, it just gets to a certain point, so close, and then bam. Just all gone. Like none of it ever happened, like it was all just a dream. Every single time. So annoying. Just some bad luck in the wind. Next time for sure!

Hah I lied. I am really tired. Tired as balls. It's only when I'm really tired I write a whole bunch of random shit and get all dramatic and emotional. Sorry people. I'm really not like this lol. I think the last few blogs have been really..uh sad or depressing. I've just been really tired these past few days.

Is this a really long blog? I don't really know.

I am so down to go golf or something. Maybe in a couple weeks.

Nicole Simorangkir, you are crazy. Just remember.. It was also fun seeing you this past weekend and hanging out with you. When you and Cassidy come down whenever it is you guys do, we'll have a little fiesta.

I'm kinda looking forward to drill. We have to do good this year. If we don't get first I'm gonna cry. NHS stuff is getting really busy.

Fresno

I really should try to sleep..too excited for the tournament though.

today was eh..really tired and fell asleep in almost every class..not good.

cooking was interesting. Played yu gi oh with michelle. ate some apples. She has a really rare card. haha I missed talking to you.

Random "date" with danielle. Jesus you need to stop putting such ridiculous claims on the interwebs.people might start getting ideas. Lol.its pretty funny though.. You know.

Glendale game afterwards.played for like 15 minutes..the subs got to play and it was still a shut out.sad sad.

Finally won my first auction on ebay! Yay.

tired as balls..shower and bed time.

Well haven't done these in a while:

1. I'm glad we're friends.

2. Excited to see you this weekend. Our plans for hanging out never really worked lol.

3. Well I guess maybe this weekend we'll get to chill finally.

4. You are so attractive..your legs are like angels..lol.

5. I'm happy for you.

6. Hah you are such a cutie. Exactly like your sister.

7. I kinda wish something would happen between us but I see you maybe once a week if I'm lucky. Its just not meant to be hah.

wow I just realized that it was all girls for those numbers..its obvious what's on my mind hahaha.

peace.

HOT

The days are just getting hotter and hotter and well today was just really really really humid. I felt like I was walking through someones mouth.. eww that is a gross analogy but you get the point.

Today was pretty dope. I guess. college English is like one of the easiest classes, along with calculus and Spanish 3.. Actually all my classes are super easy except FREAKING Government! omg.. Hate that class so much. Oh that reminds me, I need to send in the thesis statement. You're welcome if this reminded you.

0: Nothing. Read and talked with Liz..finished calculus hw.
1: New lesson. chain rule. All review
2: NOTHING! FUCK YOU GOVERNMENT!
7: Did physics problems. yay. So confusing.. but I think I'm getting the hang of it now.
3: Spanish 3. Funniest thing ever. We're playing jeopardy in espanol, and Team A has 5 puntos, Team B has 3, Team C has 5. I'm on Team B. So it's the last rotation and Tim, Rojas and I go up. We all decided to tie and get puntos together. So first question comes, they don't raise their hands I go, get it right, *ding* PUNTO. Second question, senor decides to make it a dos punto question. So Tim starts yelling and gets a minus punto. So now me and tim are tied at 4 puntos and rojas at 5. So we tell him to do something to get a minus punto, and he pushes me. He ends up getting minus 2 puntos and senor calls the game. We try to tie so much in his class. Senor is catching on haha.
4: Prayer walking.... met a psycho lady. awesome.
lunch: NHS meeting. busy busy busy.. it feels like last year again.
5: Cooking, made some garlic rolls and served them to Dr. Benson. our kitchen is actually really good lol.
6: Racquetball. Played Sharde. 15-5, 15-1. It was too easy.. I kinda felt bad.

Went to go get ice cream after with Danielle :). lol you are so dumb. I hope you had fun.

RAA game... really really sloppy. I don't want to think about it.

Well I guess that's itt..

I'm tired of being single.. I think I need me a girl! - I need a girl by Tae Yang.
Sexy boy.. mmmm. forget girls when I can just stare at tae yang's abs... lol.

gosh why am I so gay? hahah aigh peace everybodys.

people

There's just some people that are just annoying. I just can't deal with them.

1. People who broadcast their lives on twitter/facebook..yeah I'm happy for you and all and I don't mind some stuff but when its like everything you do..everywhere you go etc..no one gives a fuck. If we wanted to know we would ask. Also when people have like full-on convos on twitter..like you can just change the recipient and save everyone else the garbage we don't need.. If its a girl yeah they're girls but when its a guy stop being a bitch. Go get a blog.

2. People studying for the SAT and stressing about it only like two weeks before..if you haven't been studying for like at least a few months consistently as in everyday of the month or over a longer period of time its not really going to help you..stop acting like you care.if you did you would have started studying your freshmen year or even jr.high.

3. Also random friend requests..if I haven't seen you, talked to you, hung out with you, or even not know your name why would I accept your friend request.. Just annoying when they add up.
A
4. Now I would start listing names but everyone would be butt hurt.. But I'll be flat out honest I can't stand this one group..omg. So fucking annoying. Stop bitching, you all don't have game, you all are immature as shit. Never once have I heard one intelligent remark from any of you or anything insightful..you guys just talk about stuff that doesn't matter..

Fuck..haha i'm just tired. Venting feels good..

I need to find a lady friend.

Anyways good game at orangewood. Really close. I think the final score was like 39-32 or something. I feel bad for the second string. RAA game on wednesday! Haha.

I wish my cards would sell on ebay! Ugh I need the money.

Well that's it..

.Peace.

Its times like these..

Pretty good weekend. Friday was just nap time. Came home, and just knocked out until like 8 o'clock, then played BlazBlue with my brother for a bit and ate dinner and went back to sleep.

Woke up on Saturday morning around 10. Decided not to go to Frank and Sons.. I don't really need more cards, I just need to sell the ones I have. Went to Hangar 18 to watch the ABS comp. Pretty legit. Heard about Joe. So sad. Threshold just won't be the same anymore. Watching the comp only made me realize just how much more I had to work and how much further I had to go. Sure I had been climbing for less than a year, but I'm at a level where I'm neck and neck with 4 year veterans. They have so much experience over me its ridiculous. I just need to spend more time in the gym.

Went to Asian convocation..lamest thing ever. Bunch of sweaty Asian guys running around playing basketball. Girl with a cute face and effed up smile. nice. Went home and slept.

Today went out to Burbank for a volunteer thing. Afterwards, went to LA to eat and shop and whatnot. Came home..

Chill weekend.

Tofu and Greg you guys are freaking retarded. And Greg I hope you enjoyed sending "I love you." to every single girl in my contacts. It was actually pretty funny afterwards.. Let's just hope nothing's awkward or anything haha. Some of them didn't reply...

Well, time to start Calculus homework..

Peace.

This sucks duckload

I don't even know what to say.

I hope you find what you've been looking for.

I miss you already.

God bless.

Football..

Has been so much fun so far. Sunday tournament was a lot of fun too except for the fact that the games were really close..especially the newberry game, won by just one point. Just way too close. But a win its a win. Got hit around a lot though.

really excited for fresno tournament though its gonna be so much fun.well I guess that's it for today..

Peace.

Good Day

I was a little flustered that I wouldn't be going to beach vespers this year. But I made a good choice by not going. FREAKING STARCRAFT 2! omg so much fun. Even though I sucked a whole bunch and my macro was crap. Lot of fun. Got really tired. went home. Cut my hair. Now waiting to pick my brother up and then go to sleep.. mmmm yes good day indeed.

WANGHU

Awesome week at Havasu. Wakeboarding was so much fun. Getting pretty good at it. Hit a couple jumps. Sick.

tfarcrats owt and doorb raw.

Step brothers.

Just too much stuff to explain.

Downloading Kickass right now! woooo

New 2ne1 album! Arrived today! Thank you 이모.

Gonna get more music Friday and Thursday.

I miss team Flux!

Peace

Havasu

We leave tomorrow! Nice!

One thing that bugs me. "People working out for Havasu." I mean yeah it's cool that you want to be fit and buff and that you want to take care of your body, I respect that. I mean I want to be like that too. But I'm not gonna do it "for Havasu" or for "the girls." (well the girls yes, but not from our class lol) I'm doing it for myself. I don't need to impress anyone..I mean who is there to impress? I just think it's retarded how some people put so much emphasis in being buff and cut for havasu..idk it's kinda dumb also how people just start working out during the summer saying that they're gonna be super buff by Havasu.. lol good luck. If you aren't in the habit of working out, then you're not gonna keep it up for more than a week. And even if you do, you're not gonna get too far. Fucking, just go and have fun! who the fuck gives what your body looks like. I don't really care. anyways, there's my rant. What are you gonna do with your big muscles? Lift more weights? how fun.

I just want to fucking climb.

Brennan you are literally the coolest guy I know. I'm envious of your knowledge and wisdom and body. lol I'm glad I met you. I hope we can be good friends.

Kingdom Hearts: Birth by Sleep! wooooo gonna be playing that a little tonight and on the way to and back from Havasu and at night! yes.

SO freaking excited.

Gotta finish packing.

peace.

III.

Jane pointed out something to me today, that I don't talk to any girls. Well..I really don't know why. Mainly because I rarely see anyone at all. I'm not gonna bother talk to underclassmen, I'm never going to see them again. idk my schedule this year is just..wack. I blame it on my schedule. But I mean even if I did talk to girls, which girls would I talk to? But it's all good. I don't really care.

My car smells like Jane Kwon.

Freaking pwned on the field today. Even though my hamstring started to act up, I just played on it. Kinda hard to go full speed or change directions really quickly but it was good enough for today at least. I need to be at 100% soon.

Peace.

Flux Family

Yu-Gi-Oh after school.

I guess sorta hung out with Michelle. Too bad you're mean.

Panera.

Alumni game after.

Dope day. Too bad football gets in the way for me sometimes. I'm gonna miss all you guys.

Korea next summer fosho.

"Ok, guys, I have to go do homework.."

Exotic Citrus Mint.

dope dope dope.

We all peaced out. Tofu and Edmund went to Elephant Bar for Ed's birthday. Greg went home. Kirsten and I went to In-n-Out.

Animal-style Cheeseburger and a cup of water and some stickers.

Dropped her off at home.

Went home myself.

Computer.

College English rough draft.

brain dead.

I can only think about one thing right now..

Why does this always happen so easily.

Just play it cool.

I'm done.

Peace.

Buffalo Wild Wings

Hmmm.. Haven't blogged in forever. No one blogs anymore. I guess it's because they're all to cool and use a tumblr. That's cool. Not hating on it..just saying. Whatever floats your boat. I guess a quick recap of last week and today? Yup sounds good.

Friday: Climbing. That's all I can remember haha.

Saturday: Frank and sons for Yu-Gi-Oh cards!!! YES. lol. it was hilarious. I think I'm actually getting closer with Matt Loh again.

Sunday: Stayed home all day. I think.. Or did I go climbing? I can't really remember.

Monday: Stayed home all day, until things got awkward around the house.. I just bounced and went to Threshold. When you have a problem, or are pissed off, go to Threshold and climb. OH a girl complimented me on my shirt and we talked for a while. It was dope. Random convos at Threshold make my day.

Today: haha This one will be a little better because I can actually remember sort of. SLEPT IN! FInally. Thank you Ms. Taylor. Felt so good sleeping in past 7. Did not mind that at all.. Saw my gov test. oh man I got raped so hard. 29/47. oh yes.. Off to a great start Jon.. It's ok because I have rocks. Lunch was blah. Wasted $6 on caf food. Got yelled at by coach Hall.. He takes his P.E. class way too seriously.. ummm went to my lesson afterwards. Had a LONG talk with Jason.. oh god. Game. Didn't play at all. Freaking hamstring. sooooo annoying. I thought it got better. But it just came back. So freaking gay. and Derik and Tim told me I was suppposed to start.. gay. If I hadn't been injured all last week..

Got annoyed and a little pissed. Lost my keys. Thank you Max for finding them. You're my hero. Went to Threshold. Got stuck at the rail roads twice.. and another time on the way back. Climbed for a bit. Made friends with a worker from 510. Pretty dope. Gave him beta. haha. THAT was dope. He was a really nice guy. It's not true how climbers are douchebags.. They're only douchebags if you suck at climbing or you don't climb at all. Buffalo Wild Wings afterwards. OH DON'T LOOK. with Kirsten, Tofu, and Edmund. lol. do you know why your wings took so long? oh man. "Did you know that 99% of pennies have skeet on them?" so many inside jokes. Dropped Kirsten off and went home. Thank you, I keep forgetting to tell you but I'll remember sometime. Apparently I have a girlfriend who's father is a neurosurgeon and owns a hospital... I had no clue. Most random thing I've heard ever. But wouldn't that be nice.

I really need to find a girl in general. It's kinda boring all by myself since I barely have friends. I will be holding tryouts so feel free to show up..

haha JOKE

Peace.

disappointed

I really am.

Frustrated a little because of my leg.

I mean seriously?

But it's whatevs.. it was an accident.


School sucks.

Why are the people in 2011 soooooo boring? and hard to talk to?

I say hi to Rafael for example, he says something I can barely understand and then looks down and avoids eye contact.. Like come on man I said hi because I wanted to talk to you. And I can just list a whole bunch of people.. I just can't get along with these people.

Made three new friends today.. uhhh Ronan, Brennan, and Jeremiah? or yeah. dope people.

You're like one of the only exceptions. seriously oh my gee. Why can't people be more like you?


Tired. buuuuuuut

No 0 period tomorrow!! YES

and no 0 period all next week until Friday! whoooo get to sleep in.

And then Havasu the week after. Highlight of senior year..

I don't want to hype it up too much and have it end up sucking balls because like half the class isn't gonna do anything..


Peace.

Here's a quickie

My ipod won't connect to the wifi at my house so I have to go on my comp to check email, fb, fs, twitter, AIM, blog, EVERYTHING. so annoying. It was so much more convenient to be taking a dump, get bored, whip out my ipod check fb or something but now I have to go and sit down and turn it on, log in, open the browser, type in the url, blah blah blah.

Well no one blogs anymore. Except me and chandler. But we were the only ones that blogged anyways. Agreed on the fact that it's me and Chandler updating each other's days. I know I have a filipino chick and a hungarian chick following my blogs. So a little shout out to you guys. Hope you guys have been well and your summer has been great. Don't know how you guys stumbled on my blog but I hope it's been entertaining. I'll try to make it more funny/weird/random or whatever. My email is in my profile so just hit me up if you guys want me to do something or just talk whatevs..

Friday: Slept all day.

Saturday: Slept all day. Then dodgeball.

Sunday: VG, Climb, VG, Tofu's house. dope day.

Peace every one.

I'll try to find a funny youtube vid for the next blog or something.

kassem g

Is hilarious. I need to rewatch all his stuff again.

now that I've read Chandler's blog it seems that a lot of people use tumblr. That's cool..like really cool. I just can't afford to get one. Too expensive. I'm pulling through some hard times right. A little low budget.

I want to be the very best.

You are wack.

I'm gonna buy a video camera..

Adventure

My life seems to be filled with these epic adventures lately. I love the adrenaline rush. Putting my life on the line. I don't care if I die. If I die, that's the easy way out of this hell hole and into Jesus' arms. But I have goals for this life so I can't die just yet. Got hit by a car biking back to my car from Citrus..freaking scariest moment of my life. It happened so slow but fast. Can't really describe it but it was freaking scary. I'm lucky I wasn't hurt. The car was coming to a stop and I guess we both weren't paying attention because I had my head turned backwards talking to Greg and checking for cars behind.

lol elementary reunion..Who has an elementary reunion? I thought it was funny.

School was ok.

I want to get out of here..seeing all the 2010 alumni makes me want to get out of here already. The only two serious classes I have are calculus and college English.. everything else is just a waste of time.

I need to find people to room with for Havasu. I serioualy don't have any close friends besides people that left and Greg. so sad.

uhhhh sorry I didn't go bowling with you hah.. uhmmm we'll hang out some other time yeah? Before you start college.

And hope you got what you wanted. And hope your stomach feels better too hahaha. We'll go hit up vg together sometime too I need to go again.

Really tired.. I think I'm just going to rest tomorrow and Sunday.. just climb for a little bit.

Why are people at school so..uptight. They're so uhh..idk. boring. They're hard to interact with.. Like I mentioned way before, I got along better with some random 27 year ols musician guy then most people at school. And what I hate the most is people taking academics seriously and only wanting to go to an advetist school..that is retarded and a waste of time.. if you're gonna go to an adventist institution then you don't need to study for SAT. You don't need study at all.. gahh that just pisses me off. Bright people wasting their talents and ultimately keeping their talents in this small communiy when they should get out to the rest of the world and contribute to the general society not just a small community. SDA is dying. And I don't blame it.

I want to make it big in the world. Gain power and standing and recognition from the global community. Power to do and change things and influence decisions.

Good job everyone who made football!

I'm sorry Dylan :( don't worry about it. It's just a big joke anyways.

This world is falling apart. American government is so corrupt it is not even funny.

If you're interested search MK ULTRA. Start from there. Then go on to Illuminati, Freemasons. The founding fathers. Its basically a cult and a satanic government..by keeping state and religion seperate we created a new form of government from the rest of the world and formed a democratic nation. Which is not really democratic at all. They only say that to make you happy and from revolting. The truth is we are continually being mind fucked and brain washed. Religion is all part of it too. Its only there to comfort those who doubt the world and its natural faults and the government. But the faults are uncontrollable and we need something to blame and bam there we have religion. So how can we say there is one true religion and only one true god? That doesn't make any sense. Think about it. Seriously think about it and don't just say oh he's just a stupid angry emo teenage kid trying to be all philosophical. Does it make sense that there is one true god when there have been billions of religions/faiths/beliefs? No. By saying you believe in one religion and one god you automatically and indirectly state you are superior to all others wbose bekiefs are different and you develop prejudice. More killings have been done in the name of religion than anything else. The holocaust? Same thing. Nazism was a religion. Judaism is a religion. The crusades. The expansion of the Ottoman empire and the spread of Islam and Muskim rule across Europe and the Middle East. idk what to think.

I'd really like to believe in Jesus Christ because eternal salvation and release from all sins is just way too good to pass up.and to spend eternity with mt friends family and Jesus, God holy spirit and all the angles and seeing all the different worlds sounds like wayyto much fun. But it just doesn't make sense. But fow now I'm still a believer. I think it was Pascal who said beleiving in a faith is a better gamble. pascal's wager. interesting concept except I heard people preaching that if Christianity doesn't cost you everything then you aren't a true follower. And that if it doesn't cost everything then that religion is worthless. Interesting interesting words. That's why I don't like going to church. People preaching atyou random stuff. That's not church that's just sitting in a lecture guised with Jesus. Church should be reaching out as a body of people for Christ to the community. I mean yeah wedo that but I think that should be the focus of each worship rather than a guy who goes to school to preach. If youget educated to preach then how authentic is the message? I mean I don't know what pastors have to go through and I'm sure I'm mistaken but until I gain further knowledge it just doesn't make sense.

I've been listening to too much Muse lately...

long rant..

Resistance

develop independence, free will, autonomy, liberty free from the bounds of this earth and life and society and its traps and temptations. Too bad we're all stuck. Blame the Europeans/the white people for that 600 years ago.

We live our lives just to support this monster known as America. Without us the coutry falls, and we in turn die along with it. We then therefore have a symbiotic relationship.. America is living and breathing. And not just America we are all bound to this global economy and this global scene. The purpose of our lives is to support it so we can support ourselves..

The new healthcare plan is going to fuck us over. A huge behemoth is coming our way. The Obama administration has let it loose. Its up to us to either stopit now or fight it forgenerations to come. Its first attack is going to strike the medical industry then our pockets. And these blows will not be light. Are we going to put our banks under government control? Yeah turn socialist! why not go communist while we're at it.

American literacy rate is going down. And I think because of this healhcare plan we're going to fall behind in the global economy. Our economy is still really bad. Japan has recovered and so has South Korea. Both doing a little better than before. I'm scaredat how China will turn out in say about 20-30 years. What kind of world are we going to raise our kids in? We decide that right now..

peace

SENIORS

Yes. feels good to be up here. Really does. I wish I could have came in with the seniors but its ok. I had fun with my bike.

We did pretty good. yeah thats it..

Freshmen are lame this year..

peace

shopping with Asian parents

dope day dope day.

violin lesson. Went much better than last time. Thank goodness. Feeling more confident for the recital on Sunday.

School supply "shopping" with Greg.

VG with Greg. looked for pants for two hours...didn't find any. Went to Penang after. freaking bomb food. Threshold for a bit after.

home now

I think I'm gonna start a vlog. Soon.

peace

V6

Sent my first V6 today! Yes..goal accomolished for the summer.

Well that's it for today. Nothing else happened.

School in just one more day. Crazy.

I am so screwed for my lesson and recital. I'm so fucked. I give up. It hurts so much to play.

Tomorrow! Busy day. Lots of plans.

I'm looking forward to one thing in particular. hmmmm..yes.

I actually really wanna see you. It feels like forever.

Supermassive Black Hole - Muse

peace

Contradiction

You contradict yourself a lot.

Joshua Tree Day 1.
Left home around 5. Joshua Tree was closed. So we slept in Greg's car in front of a random McDonalds.

Joshua Tree Day 2.
Arrived at Joshua Tree. Our crash pads fell off the car twice. It was a pain in the ass to carry them back and tie them down again and again. It was freaking hot..

ehh I don't feel like writing about it. It was a fun though.

Class party was boring. Well didn't stay too long.

I want school to start already. So that it can be over faster. Senior year is a countdown to graduation. Nothing more. No point in making new relationships or friendships, its all gonna be gone in ten months. I'm good with what I have. Even though I don't have much left. It's all good.

I couldn't agree with you more. Perfect understanding and interpretation.

The Europeans destroyed the world, 500 years ago, trying to create their own. How ironic. Their efforts resulted in the current world. Falling apart. Sad sad sad, we're just all destroying ourselves. and no one can do anything. Its a sad world. All pawns in a grand scheme, of the universe. Spiraling out of control. Into an inevitable demise and oblivion. We'll come and go. One life doesn't cost more than another. Yet we insist so. We're all insignificant creatures. Trying, lying to ourselves that we are important, that there is meaning to life. But the truth is nothing matters. Everything will soon be gone. So don't count your treasures in earth, but in Heaven, with Jesus who saved our meaningless existence and gave it a purpose and meaning. Amen

That was random..

Freedom comes when desire is extinct. Otherwise, impossible

haha I'm getting all philosophical, how funny. Stoners do this a lot. but there's truth in what I say..

I'm bored.

peace

Epic Adventure

Joshua Tree was an epic adventure.

too lazy to go into detail right now. Maybe later..

Tired..

peace

V5 1.3.5

Finally sent my first V5 today. So happy and proud of myself. Almost sent another one actually. These pants are my lucky charm. My grey jeans. It was fun talking to you today. And just chilling. It was fun. I'm just gonna go on a rampage and send all those other 5's and just move on to V6. And maybe in a month V7? haha maybe..maybe.

Interesting. All I have to say. Interesting.

Kind of excited for vg on Wednesday. Maybe you can come too. hah it'll be fun..

I need to practice my violin..a lot more.

I hate how my memory sucks. Its really annoying. I keep forgetting important stuff. Its really annoying.

I wish I was in 2010. Oh well.

peace

The Knights Templar

Had that book in my bookshelf. Interesting book actually.

I need to get a life. I played bw all day and watched StarCraft 2 videos.. Pathetic. just pathetic.

Really looking forward to senior year. It looks like it will be very interesting. Glad I'm not in office but Ms. Philips made me the "president" of NHS. uhh no really sure what to do with that. Hopefully we actually do somsthing this year.

I'm excited for senior year for one particular reason. I'm interested in how our class will change. Generally speaking our class is very introverted, clicky, and lazy.. I just want to see how things will turn out for us. For like drill, talent show, and especially class night.

But sadly I just don't care much I just want to see this end. I think that's why I like musoc so much, I can actually feel stuff through it. Because i just don't really care about anything anymore. How sad. I need to change that. I really do. haha but whatevs lol. uhh yeah.

Trying to think of something to do ..can't think of anything. I've done like everything there is to do around here. go for something typical I guess. idk. Mall, movie, dinner, ice cream? ehh idk. i'll think of something. I'd rather just sit at a park and talk or just walk around town or something but can't really do the latter haha. well i guess that's the mall. whatever.

ugh starcraft strategies are running through my head right now. kinda annoying.

oops summer reading. I forgot.

uhh class party Sunday? I guess so..

why can't we just all be friends..immature little prick. just man up..and own up to it.. you're just too irritating for me.

Pro Musica just won't be the same. It looked like it was going to be boring anyways. don't really care. I needed cooking to graduate. my schedule is just...ughhh. But I knew it was going to be like this. I am glad I got that free 6th second semester! and only one optionals class. second semester is gonna be a breeze.. get out at 1:45 and go home and then climb..yess.

peace

Slapping empty bitches as you go..

Story of your life. Haha I know those aren't the lyrics but it sounds like. I suck at making out lyrics. I mainly just know like three or four words then go doo doo la la lala nala.. I need to get better at that.

ugh violin epic fail today. Not enough time to practice.. I sounded so bad I wanted to just leave. So embarrassing.

Playing through the starcraft campaign again. Almost finished with the Protoss and about to head over to bw campaign. pretty exciting. En taro Adun Executor. For Aiur.

Threshold later with Nate. ugh was a lazy day for me. My forearms were really tired. Didn't feel like climbing much. Just trained afterwards. I'm getting stroger I can feel it.

Oh talked to Dain today lol. oh man I miss his face. oh man..

Climbing, Academics, or violin? which one to choose...if I fully commit to just one of those I'll be pretty kick ass at it with all the extra time I would be putting into it..but its hard to make that choice. All three are important and i enjoy almost all three. I need to sort out my priorities. lol that reminds me of the first Harry Potter movie when Ron Hermione and Harry are about to go through that labrynth on the third floor i think or whatever to find the sorceror's stone and hermione says something like it could get us killed, or worse, expelled from hogwarts. I miss Harry Potter. When I get time I'mgonna re-read all of them again. I've read the sixth one six times and all the other at least six..oh man. such a nerd. I have a special place in my heart for Harry Potter.

I'm gonna play starcraft, study a little, practice violin then hit up threshold in the evening..sweet.

peace

ALMONDS RAW!

lol I had a pack of that on my desk so yeahh..

Wasted day.

Senior looks interesting.

peace.

V5

I hate all of them. So much. I'm on the crux for each one. All just one move away from being done. But I just can't do it. Just training to get stronger. Today was really sad. climb for two hours, train for one. Going to take a break tomorrow. I'm coming back and hitting it hard on Wednesday after my lesson.

Some random chick tried to take a picture of me while I was sitting down...Stalker much? creepy..

It is really hot in my room..what happened to the AC?

Sorry I didn't talk to you much today or if I seemed pissed off..well I was but not at you. I was kind of frustrated with myself haha. We'll hang out again.

I just realized I only ate one meal today...hah gives me an excuse to eat some food right now! haha. Can't go to bed on an empty stomache..

My dad was looking at iPads and iMacs and Macbook Pros.. new edition to the Lee family??? I hope so lol. I need a new computer so I can play starcraft2... I mean do homework. and Research colleges.

I am really hungry..gonna go eat.

peace

Sunday

Today was...typical.

I need something to break this routine of climbing all the time. Not that I don't like climbing I just kind of want something different. Something random.. well I guess seeing AJ at Threshold was kinda random hahah

Went to Chandler's after..played StarCraft 2 for like a minute..and stopped. Watched uhhh I forgot what it was called. It was ok. Good way to kill time. Came home ate dinner. Same old stuff.

Tried going to sleep earlier but couldn't. I haven't been able to fall asleep until like 3 am this whole week. Weird. My mind just keeps spinning and thinking about random stuff and stuff. makes it hard to fall asleep.

Actually kinda hungry right now.

@Justin: The irony of it all is hilarious is it not? lol. The last thing on my mind is the first thing on my mind.. interesante. But I'd like to just keep it back there for now. Hope you're having fun with Star Wars.. may the force be with you Starkiller.

Should I have gone with Greg to watch Inception for the second time? idk I've had so many offers to go for a second round but I'm holding on to this one offer for some strange reason. I really don't know why. Whatever. It doesn't matter who I watch it with a second time right?

Some tips to survivng in the city: try your best not to be black or hispanic.
-The Other Guys

I wonder what I'll do tomorrow..hmmm probably climb and play bw! yes..

Kinda excited for registration. I want to see my schedule but that's about it.

I've written and deleted so much stuff. lol. some of that stuff is private stuff I shouldn't be putting on the internet lol. well. think this is it.

peace

느리면 놓친다

If you're slow you will miss it. literal translation of the title. Better translation get off your ass and do something before you lose the opportunity.

Epic day. Well sort of. Free crash pads! Yes!

I am going to get sponsors for climbing.

I freaking want to go to Joshua Tree..so bad. Climb real shit.

I really want Star Craft 2. Talking Chandler last night about starcraft made me want it even more. omg.. I hope you get to play it soon. You deserve it. And yes I will follow you into the anti social realm. My life will consist of climbing at day, StarCraft at night, biking/school in the morning. sick. I can see that I'm seriously going to lose some friends lol. But I'll just make new ones.

Watched the Other Guys. Wasn't that funny. Chandler you didn't miss out on much. There were some moments but it wasn't that great.

kinda tired. climbing early tomorrow. and for a long time too.

peace

Plaayyguuu playgu!!!!!

I want SC2 so bad.. well the only thing I can do is watch videos on youtube then play broodwar again pretending its sc2.

Haha figured out dumpweed and dysentary gary went!! Yes! haha high five Nathaniel. god that was like the most frustrating thing ever. Especially after not having listened to either of those songs let alone blink 182 in a few months. They need to hurry up with their new album..and IT BETTER BE EPIC.

School starts in two weeks.. nice.

And we don't even have our schedules. double nice

I hate how they do this every year. They need to change it. Send out schedules like first week of august or last week of july so we have time to buy books, make changes etc. and not having to make a mad rush to the office the first two weeks of school. complaining about having no textbooks. all that junk. whatever this is the last time! :)

Jonas was a prophet. whoo ohhh. but he didn't really get it. sad but true.

lol I think that's how it went. just popped in my head.

Just talking to Chandler Yen about starcraft. I feel so nerdy. I need to get better so I don't put Korea to shame!! lol. So many terran players.

aight peaaacccceeee

much love

Invierno

Antonio Vivaldi's Winter of the Four Seasons Violin Concertos..

Epic piece. All of them are. But winter is my favorite. Then Summer. Maybe because they're in a minor key? I've always liked minor keys better. Fantastic works of literature. Intricate harmonies and conflicts. Each phrase tells a story. Conveys an emotion or carries meaning. Every note has a purpose. When all is said and done you get a painting of a scene. Shaping each line or phrase to show the listener and to make them hear what you want them to hear. To understand and know what you know. Is the fun of violin playing. One of my teachers told me, "We are not musicians, but magicians and illusionists." Deep thoughts. I really missed all this. I haven't had these kinds of thoughts about my playing for a few years. All your thoughts and emotions can be felt when you play. Its obvious to someone else who plays an instrument. Playing the violin goes beyond just proper techniques and intonation, rhythm. Those are all components that help to paint a bigger picture. The most important part is to make the music come to life. And that is the hardest part.

Practiced my violin today for almost six hours counting my lesson. Intense. Haven't played that much in a long time. I really missed it. I didn't think I could have fun playing the violin again now with climbing, having a car, seeing friends, but I'd rather just sit there for a few hours, with my violin in hand and just play. I wish I had felt this way before. I'd be like semi pro. They always told me I had a lot of potential, one of the best from my age, way ahead of others. But I let that get to my head, got arrogant, didn't put in the effort, got stuck with a terrible teacher. Potential means nothing, if the effort isn't put in. I learned that the hard way.

It really bugs me though that I shouldn't climb as much. It messes up my muscle cotrol for violin playing. I lose some of the finer control that I need. Its different from guitar. A little too much pressure can make the note go sharp. If I lean my finger a little it changes the pitch. Any movement in the fingers change the pitch. Also my bowing is terrible. Super tight and tense. It wasn't like that before. I should have known after my first time climbing it wouldn't be beneficial to my violin playing. Oh well. I'll just take both and make it work.

Hmmm reading Farrenheit 451. Need to finish it quick so I can start my other books.

Well..guess that's it.

I just had to rant about me and violin. I love it too much.

Classical music is the best. It has meaning, carries emotions and feelings. and persists centuries after they were composed. Do you really think this mainstream crap will last over 300 years? nah I doubt it. They hardly last a few weeks. But there's a lot of great music. Just hard to come by these days. Alternative Rock still is still going strong. Love rock. hip hop industry is dying. It's been dead. they need something new and different. I know a lot of people will disagree but if you think classical music is boring you're definitely wrong. but you have to agree that mainstream shit is crap.

oh well there's my rant. Kinda long, disjointed. whatevs

peace

much love

Pause, Stop, Rewind, Stop, Play.

Disappointing. I keep forgetting to make these important phone calls. argh. Tomorrow. I have to otherwise haha its gonna be messy. First thing. I HAVE TO DO IT. omg. hah.

Began listening to Rise Against again. Don't know why I stopped. ahah we're so similar but different. Its interesting. I enjoy talking with you and hanging out with you. Don't have to worry about anything you know? Its just chill, whatever, just us and whatever we happen to be doing at the time. Something different from.

Cut my hair today again. Trying to cut the back was so scary.

Hah sorry but I don't like to be kept waiting. No hard feelings right? I understand you and I hope you understand me. I just don't really like waiting on people. I mean unless I'm really looking forward to whatever but yeah. You know. I think everyone can identify with this.

Inception Round 2? Yes. Drive in theatre? haha interesting.

I want to keep climbing and climbing and climbing.. I want to get much much better. I just din't have the strength right now. Just gotta keep working. No easy way out.

QWERTY whoever came up with this arrangement of letters on the keyboard is pretty smart. How do you come up with something like this? Ever thought of that? I think its fascinating. Same with other things we take for granted. We're all really lucky. Be good. You don't want to be on the bad end of Karma next life.

1. You are

2. I actually kind of do miss you. Now that I think of it.

3. I'd rather not think about this right now.

4.

5.

Who would have thought my summer would end up like this? Very interesting, but I don't mind.

peace

much love

To the Sea

go go go.

Getting pretty excited about the guitar covers..need to practice and practice.

Violin recital next Sunday. A little nervous. I have a lot of work to do.

lol Wedding Dress cover. oh man. hilarious. Soon. Soon.

Without summer school life's been pretty chill.
Listen to music, play guitar, play violin, cook, read, climb, bike, swim, whenever I want. nice nice..

Went to Market Night today. for like five minutes. left. Jam session at best buy. story of my life. Seriously when you get bored, hit up best buy. Video games, movies, cool stuff, and best of all their instrument section. Playing on super nice guitars whenever is pretty dope.

I'm pretty excited to finish off this summer and start school. It will most definitely be an interesting school year. Need to make some friends first though haha. oh man..havasu. who am I going to stay with? Nothing can match room 337. Ever. Hopefully we'll have a lot of gay fun...errr I mean.. gay as in happy.

Nathaniel tomorrow..orr I guess today. Climbing, jam session, mall, plus whatever else we think of. sweet.. I love random days. Its the most fun.

Just go with the flow. Do what feels right.

I'm itching for another karaoke run. Who's down? Plush!!! :)
lets freaking go..omg.

I really want to do Time is Running Out by Muse for either talent show or class night. and also somethig majorly epic. We need something super badass for class night though. Hmmm I really want to do something..

"I knew a lovely girl with such pretty pride. And every man wanted her and yeah so did I. so did I. but she up and died in a fit of vanity" Don't Know When but a Day's Gonna Come - Bright Eyes

"Yeah, I was a postcard, I was a record. I was a camera, until I went blind. Now I'm riding all over this island, looking for something to open my eyes" Train Underwater - Bright Eyes

"Life's too short to even care at all" Cough Syrup - The Jakes/Young the Giant

"I strain my eyes and try, to tell the difference between shooting stars and satellites." Passenger Seat - Death Cab for Cutie

I think that's enough for today. Just some quotes that I liked or thought was deep. I think I'll do this from now on. Its kinda fun. Just keeping the music going and whatever catches my attention..hmmm aight

peace

much love