Here's a quickie

My ipod won't connect to the wifi at my house so I have to go on my comp to check email, fb, fs, twitter, AIM, blog, EVERYTHING. so annoying. It was so much more convenient to be taking a dump, get bored, whip out my ipod check fb or something but now I have to go and sit down and turn it on, log in, open the browser, type in the url, blah blah blah.

Well no one blogs anymore. Except me and chandler. But we were the only ones that blogged anyways. Agreed on the fact that it's me and Chandler updating each other's days. I know I have a filipino chick and a hungarian chick following my blogs. So a little shout out to you guys. Hope you guys have been well and your summer has been great. Don't know how you guys stumbled on my blog but I hope it's been entertaining. I'll try to make it more funny/weird/random or whatever. My email is in my profile so just hit me up if you guys want me to do something or just talk whatevs..

Friday: Slept all day.

Saturday: Slept all day. Then dodgeball.

Sunday: VG, Climb, VG, Tofu's house. dope day.

Peace every one.

I'll try to find a funny youtube vid for the next blog or something.

kassem g

Is hilarious. I need to rewatch all his stuff again.

now that I've read Chandler's blog it seems that a lot of people use tumblr. That's cool..like really cool. I just can't afford to get one. Too expensive. I'm pulling through some hard times right. A little low budget.

I want to be the very best.

You are wack.

I'm gonna buy a video camera..

Adventure

My life seems to be filled with these epic adventures lately. I love the adrenaline rush. Putting my life on the line. I don't care if I die. If I die, that's the easy way out of this hell hole and into Jesus' arms. But I have goals for this life so I can't die just yet. Got hit by a car biking back to my car from Citrus..freaking scariest moment of my life. It happened so slow but fast. Can't really describe it but it was freaking scary. I'm lucky I wasn't hurt. The car was coming to a stop and I guess we both weren't paying attention because I had my head turned backwards talking to Greg and checking for cars behind.

lol elementary reunion..Who has an elementary reunion? I thought it was funny.

School was ok.

I want to get out of here..seeing all the 2010 alumni makes me want to get out of here already. The only two serious classes I have are calculus and college English.. everything else is just a waste of time.

I need to find people to room with for Havasu. I serioualy don't have any close friends besides people that left and Greg. so sad.

uhhhh sorry I didn't go bowling with you hah.. uhmmm we'll hang out some other time yeah? Before you start college.

And hope you got what you wanted. And hope your stomach feels better too hahaha. We'll go hit up vg together sometime too I need to go again.

Really tired.. I think I'm just going to rest tomorrow and Sunday.. just climb for a little bit.

Why are people at school so..uptight. They're so uhh..idk. boring. They're hard to interact with.. Like I mentioned way before, I got along better with some random 27 year ols musician guy then most people at school. And what I hate the most is people taking academics seriously and only wanting to go to an advetist school..that is retarded and a waste of time.. if you're gonna go to an adventist institution then you don't need to study for SAT. You don't need study at all.. gahh that just pisses me off. Bright people wasting their talents and ultimately keeping their talents in this small communiy when they should get out to the rest of the world and contribute to the general society not just a small community. SDA is dying. And I don't blame it.

I want to make it big in the world. Gain power and standing and recognition from the global community. Power to do and change things and influence decisions.

Good job everyone who made football!

I'm sorry Dylan :( don't worry about it. It's just a big joke anyways.

This world is falling apart. American government is so corrupt it is not even funny.

If you're interested search MK ULTRA. Start from there. Then go on to Illuminati, Freemasons. The founding fathers. Its basically a cult and a satanic government..by keeping state and religion seperate we created a new form of government from the rest of the world and formed a democratic nation. Which is not really democratic at all. They only say that to make you happy and from revolting. The truth is we are continually being mind fucked and brain washed. Religion is all part of it too. Its only there to comfort those who doubt the world and its natural faults and the government. But the faults are uncontrollable and we need something to blame and bam there we have religion. So how can we say there is one true religion and only one true god? That doesn't make any sense. Think about it. Seriously think about it and don't just say oh he's just a stupid angry emo teenage kid trying to be all philosophical. Does it make sense that there is one true god when there have been billions of religions/faiths/beliefs? No. By saying you believe in one religion and one god you automatically and indirectly state you are superior to all others wbose bekiefs are different and you develop prejudice. More killings have been done in the name of religion than anything else. The holocaust? Same thing. Nazism was a religion. Judaism is a religion. The crusades. The expansion of the Ottoman empire and the spread of Islam and Muskim rule across Europe and the Middle East. idk what to think.

I'd really like to believe in Jesus Christ because eternal salvation and release from all sins is just way too good to pass up.and to spend eternity with mt friends family and Jesus, God holy spirit and all the angles and seeing all the different worlds sounds like wayyto much fun. But it just doesn't make sense. But fow now I'm still a believer. I think it was Pascal who said beleiving in a faith is a better gamble. pascal's wager. interesting concept except I heard people preaching that if Christianity doesn't cost you everything then you aren't a true follower. And that if it doesn't cost everything then that religion is worthless. Interesting interesting words. That's why I don't like going to church. People preaching atyou random stuff. That's not church that's just sitting in a lecture guised with Jesus. Church should be reaching out as a body of people for Christ to the community. I mean yeah wedo that but I think that should be the focus of each worship rather than a guy who goes to school to preach. If youget educated to preach then how authentic is the message? I mean I don't know what pastors have to go through and I'm sure I'm mistaken but until I gain further knowledge it just doesn't make sense.

I've been listening to too much Muse lately...

long rant..

Resistance

develop independence, free will, autonomy, liberty free from the bounds of this earth and life and society and its traps and temptations. Too bad we're all stuck. Blame the Europeans/the white people for that 600 years ago.

We live our lives just to support this monster known as America. Without us the coutry falls, and we in turn die along with it. We then therefore have a symbiotic relationship.. America is living and breathing. And not just America we are all bound to this global economy and this global scene. The purpose of our lives is to support it so we can support ourselves..

The new healthcare plan is going to fuck us over. A huge behemoth is coming our way. The Obama administration has let it loose. Its up to us to either stopit now or fight it forgenerations to come. Its first attack is going to strike the medical industry then our pockets. And these blows will not be light. Are we going to put our banks under government control? Yeah turn socialist! why not go communist while we're at it.

American literacy rate is going down. And I think because of this healhcare plan we're going to fall behind in the global economy. Our economy is still really bad. Japan has recovered and so has South Korea. Both doing a little better than before. I'm scaredat how China will turn out in say about 20-30 years. What kind of world are we going to raise our kids in? We decide that right now..

peace

SENIORS

Yes. feels good to be up here. Really does. I wish I could have came in with the seniors but its ok. I had fun with my bike.

We did pretty good. yeah thats it..

Freshmen are lame this year..

peace

shopping with Asian parents

dope day dope day.

violin lesson. Went much better than last time. Thank goodness. Feeling more confident for the recital on Sunday.

School supply "shopping" with Greg.

VG with Greg. looked for pants for two hours...didn't find any. Went to Penang after. freaking bomb food. Threshold for a bit after.

home now

I think I'm gonna start a vlog. Soon.

peace

V6

Sent my first V6 today! Yes..goal accomolished for the summer.

Well that's it for today. Nothing else happened.

School in just one more day. Crazy.

I am so screwed for my lesson and recital. I'm so fucked. I give up. It hurts so much to play.

Tomorrow! Busy day. Lots of plans.

I'm looking forward to one thing in particular. hmmmm..yes.

I actually really wanna see you. It feels like forever.

Supermassive Black Hole - Muse

peace

Contradiction

You contradict yourself a lot.

Joshua Tree Day 1.
Left home around 5. Joshua Tree was closed. So we slept in Greg's car in front of a random McDonalds.

Joshua Tree Day 2.
Arrived at Joshua Tree. Our crash pads fell off the car twice. It was a pain in the ass to carry them back and tie them down again and again. It was freaking hot..

ehh I don't feel like writing about it. It was a fun though.

Class party was boring. Well didn't stay too long.

I want school to start already. So that it can be over faster. Senior year is a countdown to graduation. Nothing more. No point in making new relationships or friendships, its all gonna be gone in ten months. I'm good with what I have. Even though I don't have much left. It's all good.

I couldn't agree with you more. Perfect understanding and interpretation.

The Europeans destroyed the world, 500 years ago, trying to create their own. How ironic. Their efforts resulted in the current world. Falling apart. Sad sad sad, we're just all destroying ourselves. and no one can do anything. Its a sad world. All pawns in a grand scheme, of the universe. Spiraling out of control. Into an inevitable demise and oblivion. We'll come and go. One life doesn't cost more than another. Yet we insist so. We're all insignificant creatures. Trying, lying to ourselves that we are important, that there is meaning to life. But the truth is nothing matters. Everything will soon be gone. So don't count your treasures in earth, but in Heaven, with Jesus who saved our meaningless existence and gave it a purpose and meaning. Amen

That was random..

Freedom comes when desire is extinct. Otherwise, impossible

haha I'm getting all philosophical, how funny. Stoners do this a lot. but there's truth in what I say..

I'm bored.

peace

Epic Adventure

Joshua Tree was an epic adventure.

too lazy to go into detail right now. Maybe later..

Tired..

peace

V5 1.3.5

Finally sent my first V5 today. So happy and proud of myself. Almost sent another one actually. These pants are my lucky charm. My grey jeans. It was fun talking to you today. And just chilling. It was fun. I'm just gonna go on a rampage and send all those other 5's and just move on to V6. And maybe in a month V7? haha maybe..maybe.

Interesting. All I have to say. Interesting.

Kind of excited for vg on Wednesday. Maybe you can come too. hah it'll be fun..

I need to practice my violin..a lot more.

I hate how my memory sucks. Its really annoying. I keep forgetting important stuff. Its really annoying.

I wish I was in 2010. Oh well.

peace

The Knights Templar

Had that book in my bookshelf. Interesting book actually.

I need to get a life. I played bw all day and watched StarCraft 2 videos.. Pathetic. just pathetic.

Really looking forward to senior year. It looks like it will be very interesting. Glad I'm not in office but Ms. Philips made me the "president" of NHS. uhh no really sure what to do with that. Hopefully we actually do somsthing this year.

I'm excited for senior year for one particular reason. I'm interested in how our class will change. Generally speaking our class is very introverted, clicky, and lazy.. I just want to see how things will turn out for us. For like drill, talent show, and especially class night.

But sadly I just don't care much I just want to see this end. I think that's why I like musoc so much, I can actually feel stuff through it. Because i just don't really care about anything anymore. How sad. I need to change that. I really do. haha but whatevs lol. uhh yeah.

Trying to think of something to do ..can't think of anything. I've done like everything there is to do around here. go for something typical I guess. idk. Mall, movie, dinner, ice cream? ehh idk. i'll think of something. I'd rather just sit at a park and talk or just walk around town or something but can't really do the latter haha. well i guess that's the mall. whatever.

ugh starcraft strategies are running through my head right now. kinda annoying.

oops summer reading. I forgot.

uhh class party Sunday? I guess so..

why can't we just all be friends..immature little prick. just man up..and own up to it.. you're just too irritating for me.

Pro Musica just won't be the same. It looked like it was going to be boring anyways. don't really care. I needed cooking to graduate. my schedule is just...ughhh. But I knew it was going to be like this. I am glad I got that free 6th second semester! and only one optionals class. second semester is gonna be a breeze.. get out at 1:45 and go home and then climb..yess.

peace

Slapping empty bitches as you go..

Story of your life. Haha I know those aren't the lyrics but it sounds like. I suck at making out lyrics. I mainly just know like three or four words then go doo doo la la lala nala.. I need to get better at that.

ugh violin epic fail today. Not enough time to practice.. I sounded so bad I wanted to just leave. So embarrassing.

Playing through the starcraft campaign again. Almost finished with the Protoss and about to head over to bw campaign. pretty exciting. En taro Adun Executor. For Aiur.

Threshold later with Nate. ugh was a lazy day for me. My forearms were really tired. Didn't feel like climbing much. Just trained afterwards. I'm getting stroger I can feel it.

Oh talked to Dain today lol. oh man I miss his face. oh man..

Climbing, Academics, or violin? which one to choose...if I fully commit to just one of those I'll be pretty kick ass at it with all the extra time I would be putting into it..but its hard to make that choice. All three are important and i enjoy almost all three. I need to sort out my priorities. lol that reminds me of the first Harry Potter movie when Ron Hermione and Harry are about to go through that labrynth on the third floor i think or whatever to find the sorceror's stone and hermione says something like it could get us killed, or worse, expelled from hogwarts. I miss Harry Potter. When I get time I'mgonna re-read all of them again. I've read the sixth one six times and all the other at least six..oh man. such a nerd. I have a special place in my heart for Harry Potter.

I'm gonna play starcraft, study a little, practice violin then hit up threshold in the evening..sweet.

peace

ALMONDS RAW!

lol I had a pack of that on my desk so yeahh..

Wasted day.

Senior looks interesting.

peace.

V5

I hate all of them. So much. I'm on the crux for each one. All just one move away from being done. But I just can't do it. Just training to get stronger. Today was really sad. climb for two hours, train for one. Going to take a break tomorrow. I'm coming back and hitting it hard on Wednesday after my lesson.

Some random chick tried to take a picture of me while I was sitting down...Stalker much? creepy..

It is really hot in my room..what happened to the AC?

Sorry I didn't talk to you much today or if I seemed pissed off..well I was but not at you. I was kind of frustrated with myself haha. We'll hang out again.

I just realized I only ate one meal today...hah gives me an excuse to eat some food right now! haha. Can't go to bed on an empty stomache..

My dad was looking at iPads and iMacs and Macbook Pros.. new edition to the Lee family??? I hope so lol. I need a new computer so I can play starcraft2... I mean do homework. and Research colleges.

I am really hungry..gonna go eat.

peace

Sunday

Today was...typical.

I need something to break this routine of climbing all the time. Not that I don't like climbing I just kind of want something different. Something random.. well I guess seeing AJ at Threshold was kinda random hahah

Went to Chandler's after..played StarCraft 2 for like a minute..and stopped. Watched uhhh I forgot what it was called. It was ok. Good way to kill time. Came home ate dinner. Same old stuff.

Tried going to sleep earlier but couldn't. I haven't been able to fall asleep until like 3 am this whole week. Weird. My mind just keeps spinning and thinking about random stuff and stuff. makes it hard to fall asleep.

Actually kinda hungry right now.

@Justin: The irony of it all is hilarious is it not? lol. The last thing on my mind is the first thing on my mind.. interesante. But I'd like to just keep it back there for now. Hope you're having fun with Star Wars.. may the force be with you Starkiller.

Should I have gone with Greg to watch Inception for the second time? idk I've had so many offers to go for a second round but I'm holding on to this one offer for some strange reason. I really don't know why. Whatever. It doesn't matter who I watch it with a second time right?

Some tips to survivng in the city: try your best not to be black or hispanic.
-The Other Guys

I wonder what I'll do tomorrow..hmmm probably climb and play bw! yes..

Kinda excited for registration. I want to see my schedule but that's about it.

I've written and deleted so much stuff. lol. some of that stuff is private stuff I shouldn't be putting on the internet lol. well. think this is it.

peace

느리면 놓친다

If you're slow you will miss it. literal translation of the title. Better translation get off your ass and do something before you lose the opportunity.

Epic day. Well sort of. Free crash pads! Yes!

I am going to get sponsors for climbing.

I freaking want to go to Joshua Tree..so bad. Climb real shit.

I really want Star Craft 2. Talking Chandler last night about starcraft made me want it even more. omg.. I hope you get to play it soon. You deserve it. And yes I will follow you into the anti social realm. My life will consist of climbing at day, StarCraft at night, biking/school in the morning. sick. I can see that I'm seriously going to lose some friends lol. But I'll just make new ones.

Watched the Other Guys. Wasn't that funny. Chandler you didn't miss out on much. There were some moments but it wasn't that great.

kinda tired. climbing early tomorrow. and for a long time too.

peace

Plaayyguuu playgu!!!!!

I want SC2 so bad.. well the only thing I can do is watch videos on youtube then play broodwar again pretending its sc2.

Haha figured out dumpweed and dysentary gary went!! Yes! haha high five Nathaniel. god that was like the most frustrating thing ever. Especially after not having listened to either of those songs let alone blink 182 in a few months. They need to hurry up with their new album..and IT BETTER BE EPIC.

School starts in two weeks.. nice.

And we don't even have our schedules. double nice

I hate how they do this every year. They need to change it. Send out schedules like first week of august or last week of july so we have time to buy books, make changes etc. and not having to make a mad rush to the office the first two weeks of school. complaining about having no textbooks. all that junk. whatever this is the last time! :)

Jonas was a prophet. whoo ohhh. but he didn't really get it. sad but true.

lol I think that's how it went. just popped in my head.

Just talking to Chandler Yen about starcraft. I feel so nerdy. I need to get better so I don't put Korea to shame!! lol. So many terran players.

aight peaaacccceeee

much love

Invierno

Antonio Vivaldi's Winter of the Four Seasons Violin Concertos..

Epic piece. All of them are. But winter is my favorite. Then Summer. Maybe because they're in a minor key? I've always liked minor keys better. Fantastic works of literature. Intricate harmonies and conflicts. Each phrase tells a story. Conveys an emotion or carries meaning. Every note has a purpose. When all is said and done you get a painting of a scene. Shaping each line or phrase to show the listener and to make them hear what you want them to hear. To understand and know what you know. Is the fun of violin playing. One of my teachers told me, "We are not musicians, but magicians and illusionists." Deep thoughts. I really missed all this. I haven't had these kinds of thoughts about my playing for a few years. All your thoughts and emotions can be felt when you play. Its obvious to someone else who plays an instrument. Playing the violin goes beyond just proper techniques and intonation, rhythm. Those are all components that help to paint a bigger picture. The most important part is to make the music come to life. And that is the hardest part.

Practiced my violin today for almost six hours counting my lesson. Intense. Haven't played that much in a long time. I really missed it. I didn't think I could have fun playing the violin again now with climbing, having a car, seeing friends, but I'd rather just sit there for a few hours, with my violin in hand and just play. I wish I had felt this way before. I'd be like semi pro. They always told me I had a lot of potential, one of the best from my age, way ahead of others. But I let that get to my head, got arrogant, didn't put in the effort, got stuck with a terrible teacher. Potential means nothing, if the effort isn't put in. I learned that the hard way.

It really bugs me though that I shouldn't climb as much. It messes up my muscle cotrol for violin playing. I lose some of the finer control that I need. Its different from guitar. A little too much pressure can make the note go sharp. If I lean my finger a little it changes the pitch. Any movement in the fingers change the pitch. Also my bowing is terrible. Super tight and tense. It wasn't like that before. I should have known after my first time climbing it wouldn't be beneficial to my violin playing. Oh well. I'll just take both and make it work.

Hmmm reading Farrenheit 451. Need to finish it quick so I can start my other books.

Well..guess that's it.

I just had to rant about me and violin. I love it too much.

Classical music is the best. It has meaning, carries emotions and feelings. and persists centuries after they were composed. Do you really think this mainstream crap will last over 300 years? nah I doubt it. They hardly last a few weeks. But there's a lot of great music. Just hard to come by these days. Alternative Rock still is still going strong. Love rock. hip hop industry is dying. It's been dead. they need something new and different. I know a lot of people will disagree but if you think classical music is boring you're definitely wrong. but you have to agree that mainstream shit is crap.

oh well there's my rant. Kinda long, disjointed. whatevs

peace

much love

Pause, Stop, Rewind, Stop, Play.

Disappointing. I keep forgetting to make these important phone calls. argh. Tomorrow. I have to otherwise haha its gonna be messy. First thing. I HAVE TO DO IT. omg. hah.

Began listening to Rise Against again. Don't know why I stopped. ahah we're so similar but different. Its interesting. I enjoy talking with you and hanging out with you. Don't have to worry about anything you know? Its just chill, whatever, just us and whatever we happen to be doing at the time. Something different from.

Cut my hair today again. Trying to cut the back was so scary.

Hah sorry but I don't like to be kept waiting. No hard feelings right? I understand you and I hope you understand me. I just don't really like waiting on people. I mean unless I'm really looking forward to whatever but yeah. You know. I think everyone can identify with this.

Inception Round 2? Yes. Drive in theatre? haha interesting.

I want to keep climbing and climbing and climbing.. I want to get much much better. I just din't have the strength right now. Just gotta keep working. No easy way out.

QWERTY whoever came up with this arrangement of letters on the keyboard is pretty smart. How do you come up with something like this? Ever thought of that? I think its fascinating. Same with other things we take for granted. We're all really lucky. Be good. You don't want to be on the bad end of Karma next life.

1. You are

2. I actually kind of do miss you. Now that I think of it.

3. I'd rather not think about this right now.

4.

5.

Who would have thought my summer would end up like this? Very interesting, but I don't mind.

peace

much love