Adventure

My life seems to be filled with these epic adventures lately. I love the adrenaline rush. Putting my life on the line. I don't care if I die. If I die, that's the easy way out of this hell hole and into Jesus' arms. But I have goals for this life so I can't die just yet. Got hit by a car biking back to my car from Citrus..freaking scariest moment of my life. It happened so slow but fast. Can't really describe it but it was freaking scary. I'm lucky I wasn't hurt. The car was coming to a stop and I guess we both weren't paying attention because I had my head turned backwards talking to Greg and checking for cars behind.

lol elementary reunion..Who has an elementary reunion? I thought it was funny.

School was ok.

I want to get out of here..seeing all the 2010 alumni makes me want to get out of here already. The only two serious classes I have are calculus and college English.. everything else is just a waste of time.

I need to find people to room with for Havasu. I serioualy don't have any close friends besides people that left and Greg. so sad.

uhhhh sorry I didn't go bowling with you hah.. uhmmm we'll hang out some other time yeah? Before you start college.

And hope you got what you wanted. And hope your stomach feels better too hahaha. We'll go hit up vg together sometime too I need to go again.

Really tired.. I think I'm just going to rest tomorrow and Sunday.. just climb for a little bit.

Why are people at school so..uptight. They're so uhh..idk. boring. They're hard to interact with.. Like I mentioned way before, I got along better with some random 27 year ols musician guy then most people at school. And what I hate the most is people taking academics seriously and only wanting to go to an advetist school..that is retarded and a waste of time.. if you're gonna go to an adventist institution then you don't need to study for SAT. You don't need study at all.. gahh that just pisses me off. Bright people wasting their talents and ultimately keeping their talents in this small communiy when they should get out to the rest of the world and contribute to the general society not just a small community. SDA is dying. And I don't blame it.

I want to make it big in the world. Gain power and standing and recognition from the global community. Power to do and change things and influence decisions.

Good job everyone who made football!

I'm sorry Dylan :( don't worry about it. It's just a big joke anyways.

This world is falling apart. American government is so corrupt it is not even funny.

If you're interested search MK ULTRA. Start from there. Then go on to Illuminati, Freemasons. The founding fathers. Its basically a cult and a satanic government..by keeping state and religion seperate we created a new form of government from the rest of the world and formed a democratic nation. Which is not really democratic at all. They only say that to make you happy and from revolting. The truth is we are continually being mind fucked and brain washed. Religion is all part of it too. Its only there to comfort those who doubt the world and its natural faults and the government. But the faults are uncontrollable and we need something to blame and bam there we have religion. So how can we say there is one true religion and only one true god? That doesn't make any sense. Think about it. Seriously think about it and don't just say oh he's just a stupid angry emo teenage kid trying to be all philosophical. Does it make sense that there is one true god when there have been billions of religions/faiths/beliefs? No. By saying you believe in one religion and one god you automatically and indirectly state you are superior to all others wbose bekiefs are different and you develop prejudice. More killings have been done in the name of religion than anything else. The holocaust? Same thing. Nazism was a religion. Judaism is a religion. The crusades. The expansion of the Ottoman empire and the spread of Islam and Muskim rule across Europe and the Middle East. idk what to think.

I'd really like to believe in Jesus Christ because eternal salvation and release from all sins is just way too good to pass up.and to spend eternity with mt friends family and Jesus, God holy spirit and all the angles and seeing all the different worlds sounds like wayyto much fun. But it just doesn't make sense. But fow now I'm still a believer. I think it was Pascal who said beleiving in a faith is a better gamble. pascal's wager. interesting concept except I heard people preaching that if Christianity doesn't cost you everything then you aren't a true follower. And that if it doesn't cost everything then that religion is worthless. Interesting interesting words. That's why I don't like going to church. People preaching atyou random stuff. That's not church that's just sitting in a lecture guised with Jesus. Church should be reaching out as a body of people for Christ to the community. I mean yeah wedo that but I think that should be the focus of each worship rather than a guy who goes to school to preach. If youget educated to preach then how authentic is the message? I mean I don't know what pastors have to go through and I'm sure I'm mistaken but until I gain further knowledge it just doesn't make sense.

I've been listening to too much Muse lately...

long rant..

Resistance

develop independence, free will, autonomy, liberty free from the bounds of this earth and life and society and its traps and temptations. Too bad we're all stuck. Blame the Europeans/the white people for that 600 years ago.

We live our lives just to support this monster known as America. Without us the coutry falls, and we in turn die along with it. We then therefore have a symbiotic relationship.. America is living and breathing. And not just America we are all bound to this global economy and this global scene. The purpose of our lives is to support it so we can support ourselves..

The new healthcare plan is going to fuck us over. A huge behemoth is coming our way. The Obama administration has let it loose. Its up to us to either stopit now or fight it forgenerations to come. Its first attack is going to strike the medical industry then our pockets. And these blows will not be light. Are we going to put our banks under government control? Yeah turn socialist! why not go communist while we're at it.

American literacy rate is going down. And I think because of this healhcare plan we're going to fall behind in the global economy. Our economy is still really bad. Japan has recovered and so has South Korea. Both doing a little better than before. I'm scaredat how China will turn out in say about 20-30 years. What kind of world are we going to raise our kids in? We decide that right now..

peace