Breakdown

Friday, Saturday, Sunday: Duuuude Friday was bomb. I was a little disappointed but that disappointment turned into relief later in the day. Camp out was amazing. But not as great as last year. I have to say though, I loved my tent. Chris and I introduced Matt to a new world of delicious tastiness that is called 라면 (ramen). He fell in love with it and we each ate like two bowls. Matt ate three...got reacquainted with some old friends and became closer with some current ones. Then came Saturday. Breakfast was just...I don't want to talk about it haha...lets just say we almost caught the tent on fire and didn't realize it for about a minute. I was a loner most of Saturday. Matt was with his girl, Chris was sleeping and I was just tired and sitting on the beach floating from group to group doing absolutely nothing. Played football and frisbee for a while but I was really tired. Sunday we just went home and I was extremely tired on the bus ride back and took a quick nap but it was extremely weird, I felt a sudden burst of energy and was freaking going crazy. No I didn't do drugs or anything. I just was really happy to get all this stuff off my chest and talk it out. It's like taking a really big crap when you've been holding it in all day, you feel surprisingly good afterward (or at least I do). I went home and well..slept.

Monday, Tuesday and Today: School....drill....violin...sleep....repeat. I love Pastor J. I hate drill. I love violin. I love sleep. So 3 out of 4 thats not a bad day. We're now short two people and no D.I. for drill. We're pretty much screwed. With Chandler and Lydia gone on tour I doubt we'll get anythig done. God help us. Oh and there's this nasty rumor about people doing drugs (me included in that group, I'm not gonna name the rest) that is really pissing me off. It's really really really annoying. Anyways I'm not gonna care about it too much, can't let that stuff get to my head and mess me up in school and stuff. But if it gets out of control then I guess I'll have to try and do something..

So I've decided not to take the AP exam for biology. I am so behind and there isn't enough time for me to review all 1500 some pages of that effing book. Think of our bio class with ten times more detail and critical thinking and analysis and application of concepts and conducting your own labs and hardcore essays. Oh and I hate my father.

Overall I enjoyed campout. Got a load off my chest (Thanks Matt). I found out some stuff that I never thought would be true. My worst nightmares realized. My own denials and lies turned all against me. And I learned stuff about myself and I think I matured a little. Lord Jesus help me.
Amen.