So stressed out right now.
Everything is falling apart
So deperessed right now.
This week started out good but then why does all of this have to happen?
It wouldn't have been too bad individually but it just all collapsed, all at once.
I worked so hard for the whole year.
Gave up my time for friends, parties, my vacation time, screwed up relationships with my father and brother.
Organizing a bone marrow donor drive.
Going to mission trips every other weekend.
Attending donor drives.
Solving insanely hard math problems.
Studying for AP Biology.
Studying for SAT II Subject Tests.
Gave up studying time for drill.
Writing application essays and filling out numerous applications.
Practicing for concerts and recitals and competitions.
I did so much and now it just feels as if though my efforts were all in vain.
And for what?
I gave up so much yet gained so little.
I've never tasted such failure as this.
All I wanted to do was make him proud.
But not once, not once, did he ever look at me with appreciation of my work and efforts.
That pissed me off even more. Only made me want to work harder.
But I just grew tired of it all.
Tomorrow will be better. I'll make it better.
I need You.
Where are You?
Help me.
So here we are
Buried under our lives
In a world, oh so cold
Frozen in a moment, just close your eyes
Life was all a dream
So put, me to sleep
I'll follow the blood
Back to you, my God
Bring this puzzle back,
Back to life
Life Was All a Dream - Before Their Eyes
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