Seriously mang

I seriously just have one wish..

Jesus you already know.

Please?

Counting down to New Years! forget Christmas. It's just fake warmth. When December is over people act just as mean as they were before. People in general, not everyone.

I like New Years because it feels like a fresh start. A new beginning. Feel alive again.

maybe TAO? haha.

Going to sleep early.

Forget homework tonight.

Just want to sleep a little longer because NO 0 PERIOD TOMORROW! haha

gotta squeeze in as much sleep as I can now that school's started again.

peace

Shasta Fabella..

Since I have like no way of contacting you anymore haha.. if you read my blog still, Happy Birthday! Finally 18! I hope you're doing well and everything is going alright for you. Hope you enjoyed your day and happy birthday again. Miss you and your smile lots. Hopefully I'll get to see you sometime before the end of this year.

-leejon



mmmm finished everything with UC, College English. Now just College English, Government and Christian Mission. yay.

peace.

Finish Line

whooo finally done with my UC stuff. Just need to edit a little tomorrow and I'll be done for good. Just only like 7 more essays to write. Fun fun fun fun fun.. I seriously hate college english right now. It takes up so much time. geez..

Today I learned of the true importance of good writing and a good essay. The personal essay is what truly sets people apart. The numbers can all be the same but the essay will always be different. It gives insight into the applicants life and thoughts.

Nervous.

Peace.

fressshhh

Daaaaayyyyuuummm..why you so fresh? gotta give me some lessons gee.

You bug me man though. Whatevss.. hah after I read that one text. I couldn't believe it was you. I can't even see you saying that shit. Man.. you seriously let people get to your head man. hah pick yourself up man.

On a more positive note:

Chandler Yen
Whom I look up to so much.
I don't know exactly what
But all I have is respect
Love you and keep doing your shit.
I would write you a song if I was
good enough to. but yeah man.
Mad respect for you. Just felt
like I had to put it out there.



hmmm maybe next time, I'll have time, yeah? Safe trip back.

Timothy Delaghetto. Deep stuff. Love your videos. Well even though they're not that funny anymore, you're an awesome dude. Love to meet you sometime.


I need to write, write, write, write, write, write, write, write, write, write...

nahh.

sleep for now.

and relax..

리랙스...

peace.

ugh

I feel sick right now..

Should not have had tea.

Lazy day. Slept for most of it.

Drank two red bulls for I have no clue why. it was 2 for $4! why not? right?

haha soooo hyper right now..

I'm like shaking hahah

mmmmm...

yeahhh.

TO DO LIST:

1. UC APP!!!!!
2. College English textual analysis paper!
3. College English hw
4. Gov stuff
5. Other college applications
6. Practice violin!
7. Find a girlfriend. aha joke.

Need to get that shit done!

peace.

huh?

I had the..weirdest? errr eye-opening? dream ever. Why do you always have to haunt me? and make me feel miserable. I'm sure everything is fine now but still.. omg. Seriously creeped me out. And I thought it was real.

Thanksgiving was good. Didn't eat too much.. I don't like that feeling of being so full you can't get up. Just ate enough. Lunch was bad, Dinner was good. My family needs to learn how to cook haha. Well this year's was better than the last two or three, having to cook myself dinner by myself or eating leftovers. So I'm thankful for that.

Didn't go Black Friday shopping. Too tired from the turkey haha. Almost fell asleep at Hannah's house. Kinda wish I did though.

peace.

V.

You have no right to be mad at me.

You really don't..

Waste of a day.

Why do I do this to myself? hmm oh well, I still have a few days left..

mmmmm la la la.. la la la la la.

신민아 is soooo cute..and pretty..



Especially in "My Girlfriend is a Nine-tailed Fox." omg..so cute haha



And her..she's just gorgeous. 30 something but ... omg.. just marry me please 박시연 씨.

But my all time fave..and my obsession...



idk it's just something about her.. even though she's not the prettiest girl ever.. I think she's bomb.

다라.. if I could go on a date with any girl, it'd be her.



Thanksgiving tomorrow! Remember to be thankful for all the stuff you have, because even if you don't think you have much, you have a lot of stuff other people would be jealous of. So remember to count your blessings.

Peace.

Pho

Is where everything happens. Man freaking dope times. So much fun.

Woke up today, practiced my violin for an hour or so. Played some black ops. Made lunch, practiced again and then went to my lesson. Came back, went to threshold. The usual stuff.

Sat in Boba for like three hours just talking. Me Brandon, Matt, and Alex. Flo came later then we bounced.

Nicole is down, yay.

Almost done with UC application. Almost. Finish probably tomorrow or Thursday.

I'm seriously considering just going to UCR for Threshold..

Gotta cut back on tea.

I kinda miss hanging out with you. The randomness and spontaneity.

I need to hang out with you, its been forever since I even saw you.

I need to connect with people at school more.

Looking forward to this Thursday for some reason, I don't really know why.

Peace.

Urban Outfitters..

I think they stole my money..

Bought some clothes. Returned them at the store. They told me the money was put back into my checking acount.. but its not there.. And my account doesn't even say anything about anything from Urban for the last three weeks. Kinda gay. I really like this store so I'm not gonna get mad at them right now, but, if they're gonna screw up like this, I really don't know if I want to shop there anymore. And they screwed up on my order.

Protein

Decided to start trying protein supplements. Day one of using it. Let's hope I see some difference. The only thing I felt was I felt dehydrated during my workout.. Oh well.

Spam..after spam..after spam.

Can't wait for Thanksgiving Break! omg. Time to rest, work, and think, and clean everything up and start up fresh again. Please give me the strength to continue on God. Thank you. I really need your help right now. My mind is so weak. Please give me your strength, in Jesus' name, Amen.

I want a new car!

My Hyundai is a piece of crap..

There are a lot of crazy drivers on the freeway at night, around 10 o'clock. Speeding at like 90mph cutting people off, tail gating people, everything. Scary.

Starcraft tournament!

blah blah blah blah blah.

Bern I need my shoes!

peace.

Early one

Felt the need to blog after a short discussion.

JC Blogger welcomes you.

Well don't really have anything to blog about though..

Never stay out late on a school night. Not a good idea. But it was well worth it :)

hah girl you got swag..

Ms. Taylor tore my paper apart.. not literally, figuratively.

Oh well.

College Essays. Yay.

blahblahblahblahblahblahblah

You already know..like seriously I'm sure you know.

Peace.

Snickers

Possibly one of the best candy bars ever? I think its in the running. Although it would be a close match up with Twix. Those two candy bars hold a special spot in my heart.

Senior year really isn't what I hoped it to be. It's worse than last year. And last year sucked balls. Well only towards the end but yeah.

Didn't go climbing today. Maybe I'll go tomorrow.. But probably not. Friday will probably be the next time I go. I think I'm gonna be super tired this week..

Calculus test
Physics test
Government test

You should always take risks in life. Why? Would you want a life where everything is predictable? no. why? because that would be boring. When you take risks, do something unexpected, out of the ordinary, different, unique, strange, you change things up. You make things more interesting for yourself and for others. Miss a few hw assignments on purpose so you make your grade drop. Then try to get an A. That's way more fun and challenging than just doing all your junk all the time.

Makes things a little more interesting..

Well time to read. Haven't done so in a couple weeks.

Peace.

omg

Really boring weekend..

Friday. Threshold. Teatime x3! plus bern/brandon's place after. Had a mini kickback for like an hour lol

Saturday. Woke up at 1. Got black ops. Played all afternoon. Ate dinner. Went to sleep.

Sunday. Woke up at 10. Played black ops all morning. Played starcraft 2 for a little. Played black ops again. Level 25 I think right now? Signed on to Starcraft 2 again. Got promoted to gold after one game in silver. Then went on a losing streak. Super frustrating. Left. Went to go eat. came back. Started my paper. Almost done right now. Played a little sc2 to take a break. Won 4 in a row in 1v1. Then went on another losing streak in 2v2s. lame.

I think I'll prestige at least twice during break. Please give us a double xp weekend or something treyarch.

Well gotta finish my paper soon.

This weather is just.. weird.

Can't wait for next weekend. and last week before Thanksgiving break! :) please go by fast. please please please.. I am so sick of school right now. I need some downtime to sort everything out. I don't feel in control at the moment. And I don't like that because yes I am a control freak. But who isn't? hypocrites.

oh man I just had too much fun on Friday for one weekend. Next weekend will be even better. yay for Flo.

I wish I would get promoted to Plat already. I think my play is pretty solid.. I have no trouble against gold players. I lose a few here and there but I'm almost 20 wins over losses. It's like 17 or 18 wins over losses.

Peace

idk

what what what what what..

abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz

good bye

just needed to do this.

habit.

peace.

IV.

Felt like some Chipotle today. Burrito bowl with tortilla on the side. Usual stuff.

I know what's been missing in my life... Music. Now that I don't have an iPod its so weird. Listening to the same songs everyday. All day.

A copy of a copy of a copy. Everything seems so far away.

I know this because Tyler knows this.

Random aside but whatever haha. I freaking love Fight Club. I can't say that enough. I'm thinking of writing one of my college essays on it but I don't know how that will look because it screams out against modern society and says fuck the world I'm going to do my own thing.

I have tried installing League of Legends three times. It is not working for me for some odd reason. It tries to download this one patch and says the whole thing is corrupted.

Coldplay is so good.

I regret selling my iPod. memories, music, and Doodle Jump.. ohh doodle jump. I don't get why it's like $4 on the android market while it's only $1 on itunes. lame

I think I took a huge blow after my second SAT scores came out. I only feel alive at Threshold. But even today when I went, I felt so lame.

Government test tomorrow.. Yay.

I really wish La Sierra college days weren't required. It is going to be such a waste of time. It's a good idea, but it shouldn't be required.

Sleep in peace when the day is done
And this old world is a new world
And a bold world
For me

Feeling Good - Muse

I'm just rambling on.

Peace.

You change, you change

1. I miss Dain Lee lol. Enough said.

2. You changed.

3. I'm pretty sure I did too.

Football party was pretty fun. I'm gonna miss hanging with some of those guys. I won't see them as much. 4th String safety after nobody. That was like the funniest thing I've ever heard in a while. Along with Dan the Man getting punched in the stomach and dislocating his leg while falling. lol.

Safety:
1. Tim
2. Chris
3. Nobody
4. Matt

ohh man.

Glad that I got to meet and know Josh and Doug. Two awesome people.

Even though football took up a lot of time and I couldn't wait until the season was over during like the last three weeks, it was a lot of fun at the same time. Especially Fresno tournament. Now I have no more exciting trips to look forward to for the rest of the year. Just one long road to graduation. The next three months are gonna suck crap. But afterwards, I'm gonna be the happiest person ever. I'd be happy to even just go to UCR. Threshold right by, all my friends will still be there. I'll know the area super well, and its an ok school. So it's not that bad. I'm not too worried about my future. Whatever happens, I know that it was meant to happen, and that God will lead me through it.

I'm getting pretty freaking good at starcraft 2.. Gold players are too easy. Bump me up to Plat! The only time I have trouble is against protoss.. ughh I probably go like 50-50 against toss. But zerg and terran is more like 70-30 on a good day. I've also been playing against a lot of toss and terran lately. Not much zerg..

I really want to take a week off school. My body is telling me its that time of year again.. Thanksgiving break! get to catch up on my sleep. I hate 0 period. I hate it so much. Especially the fact that its college english sucks. I hate waking up tired every morning, and repeating this cycle of being tired every day, every week. I never feel rested.

Well at least after thanksgiving break, stuff speeds up a lot. Two weeks after is christmas break. And after that is end of semester, then yeah, it's already the new year. February is a short month, spring break, and then bam, jr/sr banquet, drill comp, whole bunch of stuff going on and then graduation. :) I've been waiting for that moment my whole high school career. Please come quicker. I am so ready to leave.

In a way I feel as my life is like my gas tank. It's never full, and always close to being empty. I just get so happy even when it goes half way. And I try all that I can to save the gas but it never works and it just lasts for the same amount of time. But I think that it lasted longer. I'm always so close to empty. Putting in just a couple bucks every 30 or so miles to get home, school, lesson, threshold, mall, wherever. It kinda feels like that right now.. Ohhh would I like a full tank of gas. Haven't had one since.. May, when we got back from camp out last year.

I really liked the start of Junior year. It was so much fun. Actually junior year was a lot of fun up until the last three months of school when I was so burnt out and tired of trying. I think I'm still in that mind set and I need to change that.

My eye is twitching now.. must mean I'm tired. Should go to sleep. Lies. lies lies. So tired of lies.

Calculus homework sits undone on my bed. Screaming at me to finish it. My ears have grown deaf to those cries and my thoughts immune.

There is a book I really want to read though. I will. In a bit. I think I'll sleep around 2 today. Besides My body isn't used to the time change and I'll still feel like an extra hour.

I want to hit up either bishop, jtree, or black mountain during thanksgiving weeek.. gonna be freaking dope.

peace.

Environmentalist

Are you one? I'm not sure about my self though. I think I'm neutral. I mean I'm all for it and stuff, but I'm not at advocate nor a zealot. But I'm not apathetic about it as well. I'll do my part, but I'm not gonna go around making people do theirs. Issues like this, it's better if people choose themselves to support the cause, not if people force them or rally them. It has to be 100% personal choice. This along with many other things in life.. but people never learn.

When people are oppressed, they rise up against you, and will overthrow the status quo screaming for a different future, begging, hoping that what they have now will not continue into their futures.

Random rant.. Made me think about it because of a new wallet I bought. Called a "Mighty Wallet." It's made of 100% recycled paper and is water proof and tear proof. Well as long as you don't take a scissor to it or try to rip it. The design is a 33mm film strip and it looks dope. Could use a little more slots for cards and ID and stuff but I'm happy with it.

Wow just got super distracted.. Ended up on youtube for like half an hour.

So I just saw a comment on a video of my friend playing the violin, yeah the usual haters/jealous people, and the people congratulating him blah blah blah. Not that important. But this one comment just pissed me off. So this guy by the name of detevtive66 or something, claimed that classical music is the least creative form of music ever. Ok so that is the most obvious and most uneducated statement ever. If you agree with that, then either you don't know classical music, or you're just dumb. The guy says that he studies at the Berklee school of music and studies jazz theory and stuff.

Yeah Jazz is awesome. Its all about rythm and beat and improvisation. I don't know too much about it so I can' say much, but it's pretty cool..

And he goes on to say that classical music the least creative form of music, all one has to do is follow the black notes, doesn't require interpretation, or any input from the artist other than playing the piece.

That doesn't make any sense at all.. and I could go on for a while why it doesn't.

But if that were true, why would people still be playing classical music even today? I mean its over run by all the crappy mainstream music out right now but still. People have invested in that stuff for 400+ years. Every time the piece is played its different. There are so many different interpretations of different pieces. Go listen to one classical song. A solo work like a concerto or a sonata. Then go listen to multiple people play. I guarantee they will all play it differently. But yeah I'd rather not get too excited about this right now..

Some people are just..hah so ignorant and stupid. The world would be better off without them.

What if there was a purging of the world and only the smartest, most fit, and well rounded people were allowed to survive? The next two generations might not be much different, but like by the third generation, it would be a race of super people. Elites. And the world would be better no?

That would be really cruel and heartless and cold, but there should be sacrifices to advance civilization I think. Why should we support those that cannot support themselves? It should be a free for all. Social darwinism. Only the best will survive. And well like a little average to the best will survive. Just cut the dead weight. That's what I think. Like on a sports team, you care about all your team members and you like them. But some of them are just dead weight. They drag you down. So you should cut them loose.

I was told, if your friends cause to make bad decisions and they deter you from your goals, maybe they're not your friends. hmmm interesting. uhhh so..idk paradoxical in a way. I'd like to believe in friendships. They're really, all I have. Don't really have family. But even in the friends department I'm lacking. I don't even know what happened. Well I guess a lot of them went to college. '09, '10. and whatever. I have Threshold fam.

I'm glad prop 19 did not pass. That would just have been retarded. It would have decreased trafficking? yeah right. Decrease power in drug lords? yeah right. More like make them more powerful. They would all be fighting for a monopoly on the weed market. I agree that it would have increased state budget and revenue. But not all at once. Maybe in like 10 years. But by then, how much would have changed in the drug world? Are they going to make it available at local stores like wal mart? How are they going to do it? And it would still be illegal by federal law. So California legalizing marijuana would not have been that big of a deal.

Began reading. Everything makes sense now. It's just like taking me back and showing me how wrong I was about everything. Well lots of things are clearer now.

Really hungry right now. There's no food at home..I hate it when it's like that. Too bad it's like every single day now because my dad never goes grocery shopping anymore. If I had a couple hundred bucks every week I would go for him, but I don't. Always having to eat out sucks. Costs a lot. I'd rather eat at home. When he does go grocery shopping, what does he buy? ice cream, chips, ramen, and rice. fantastic. fucking fantastic. Buy some real food please? Like ingredients to cook with so we can make food? god so frustrating. I tell him, but never remembers or listens. Can't wait till I get out. I will come back and I will fix you up a nice, home cooked full on meal.

I liked it during the summer when there was a lot of free time for all of us. We always had a crap load of stuff at home to make food with. It was good. But now so busy. I see my dad like three times a week. Monday, Tuesday, Sunday. Other times he comes home after like 11. And I'm either sleeping, out, or studying in my room.

I feel bad for my brother but he has Starcraft 2 and his friends. So that's good. Gives him something to do.

Banquet announcement on Friday was terrible! omg.. It was confusing, had nothing to do with theme of the banquet, didn't even try to hint at the location. It was just terrible. But the place looks really nice. It looks REALLY nice. debating whether it would be worth $55 though. I could go and spend time with friends, but I could do that for free. Make memories, but I could also do that for free at some other place. Doing probably more exciting things than eating dinner while watching a couple of magicians. But it is my senior year.. hmmm choices choices choices.

I kinda wish I cared about something other than my self or my future. But the truth is I really don't. If its not in my interest, I probably wouldn't do it. But then again, everyone is the same. whatever.

This was a long blog.

Peace.

omg Chandler Yen

You read my fucking mind I kid you not.. We will remain on blogger. I'm only going to switch when we both decide together. Which will never happen.

I also have been addicted to Arizona Green Tea with ginseng and honey. One can everyday. I have like 10+cans in my trash in my room, and like 4+ on my desk because I can't fit it in my trash and I'm too lazy to take it out right now.

ugh totally unproductive day. gb was alright.. Didn't really enjoy playing to get placed in bronze and pretty much trying to play 2v3. oh well. It was still fun though.

uhhh watched Code Geass for a couple hours. Awesome anime. It's like psychological thriller/suspense/mind blowing/awesome/yeah. Japanese.

Hit up thresh for a few hours and helped Wilson start climbing! whoo. Another person to climb with. Chilled with the usual thresh people.. Brandon, Bern, Tony, Jose, Alex, Kirsten, Mike, Greg, Ronan, jd, blablablablablabla. Threshold family right there. I'm gonna miss them all so much after I graduate.. I'm seriously considering staying in this area just for threshold. Not only because its a great climbing gym, but the atmosphere in there is just awesome. Every time I walk in, its like a party in there. I can always count on seeing someone I know there and if not just meet new people who like the same stuff I do and usually share same opinions and ideas about life.

I love Mr. Bancarz. No joke. He is awesome. Thank you so much for believing in me and giving me a second chance.

Feels like a Friday..

Peace

Oh bugger

Oh geez.

I may not be able to get myself out of this one. But I will.

Lesson learned for sure.

Well I don't know if You will help me on this, but I believe in You.

Need to just rest up..

Yes

Just got done with Calculus homework! so happy. It feels good to finish stuff, especially if its before they're actually due. I could get used to this feeling. I should have realized this years ago instead of procrastinating throughout high school. Oh well, never too late right? I still have four years of college to use this new found discovery, and whatever professional school I decide to go into. sweet. Test tomorrow, gonna review a little more and then I should be good to go.


Super tired right now though.. I really don't want to go to school tomorrow, well I just don't want to wake up at like 6:30. I wouldn't mind if school started at like 2 o'clock. I just hate waking up early. I just need one day to recover and I'll be all good.


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Tournament is over now, and so is football season. I will definitely miss it, it was all a lot of fun. It just took up too much time for me and made it hard for me to balance so many things at once. Violin, Climbing, Football, SAT, School, college app, Calculus, College English, family stuff, also the fact that its usually just me home alone doesn't help a lot either. Well I guess this is what the real world is like. Just me and myself. Lots of good memories with football. Step Brothers. Petey. Petey. Petey. Peach. Dan the Man. Papa Bear. OH! Chicken. Ask Dante. How big can her house be, she's Mexican. Fun fun fun.

Red Bull is amazing. I probably would have fell asleep right after my game if I hadn't drank two right away. That stuff kept me up and gave me a little more energy. Highly recommend.

Well now that the season is over, I really have no excuse for not getting stuff done. I just really need to focus up and get things done. I've been slacking a lot in school.. Well actually not really.. idk how I have like 2 C's. Except Spanish III..which is retarded. College English I can fix. Math, if I work hard, I can bring from B to A. And I think everything else I should have an A.

College apps are gonna be a pain.. UC starts accepting apps starting today. Need to hurry and finish my personal statement.. I wish I had some kind of help with all this stuff. Fast. Maybe this weekend?

I need to finish my traffic school. ugh. Stupid cops.

I have a ton of chocolate from those fundraising things or whatever from Pizza Hut lol. Just sitting on my kitchen table. nice.

I have 3 cans of Arizona Green Tea and one of those big bottles on my desk with two cans of red bull. Nice.

Haven't done these in a while

1. haha I never should have doubted you, I totally agree right now. Douche :)

2. You are perhaps one of two people I will never understand.

3. When did you get so pretty? haha

uhhh guess that's it..

Peace.