mmmm...

Cookies! haha sharde. That joke was the shit. Don't worry I have more stupid jokes.

Mcgangbang for lunch and sweet tea. mmm..

Missed drill practice.. who knew how long it would take to go from my house to school?

Well honestly, I went home, ate, changed and then left. haha. wasn't trying to miss it just happened ya know?

Threshold after. Cake and tea. mmmm.. so good :)

I'm so glad I got close with tofu and aaron..

Our birthdays are all one month apart and we're all in 92.

Aaron: Sept. 24
Me: Oct. 27
Tofu: Nov. 29

scary

We all have the same blood type too..

even more freaky

we all got sick at the same time on the same day with the same symptoms while we never saw each other for over a week...

just plain out weird.

hmm...

Good workout.

Why is it so hard to stop smoking? seriously.. like why?
I had reasons before. and told myself that I had no more reasons
to do it. But I continue to do it regardless. why? I
really need to stop.. like forreal we all need to try and quit.
Because it is like impossible by yourself..
Probably because I did so much over break..
Not good.
Average of like 6 a day..
Went through like 6 or 7 packs in two weeks..
crazy.
and that's like 60 bucks..
damn.
I freaking need to stop..
I don't even want to smoke.
My body just needs the nicotine.. in the form of a cigarette..

Making promises used to work but now not anymore. No matter how hard I try promises aren't enough..idk what's gonna get me to stop but whatever it is i'm ready for it.

ugghhh I feel like I've lost so many friends.

way too many.

hmmm looking forward to tomorrow.

Every new day is a chance to make something new happen..

wow that was stupid lol.

laters gee

peace

Days like this

Makes me want to just run away.

Woke up. Hurried to do some work in San Timoteo Canyon to clear mud from houses.
It was pretty fun I guess. Was there for about an hour and then went home to wash up. Headed out to Threshold a bit later. Met up with people and went to Asahi Sushi. All you can eat! Freaking bomb ass food. Ate so much.

Hit up Thresh after. Then slack lining at the park for about an hour.

Played some ping pong for a few hours. Good shit. Me and Greg were doing so good.

Came home usual bullshit from dad.

Now I'm grounded. blah blah blah.. Like I care.. I really don't..

If you wonder why I'm like this, take time to consider what you've done for me and how I grew up. I grew up by myself, the only people I had were my friends from school. You never talked to me. All you did was make me do shit I didn't want to. Not let me do shit I wanted to. And just bought me stuff. I barely ever saw you. Home alone most of the time. Left at school with friends most of the time. All we did was live in the same house. The relationship we have can hardly be called a father-son relationship. I seriously cannot stand you. We're nothing alike.

I'm your consequence for not doing shit to me. Never doing anything for me, only stuff that you thought I would like. You don't really know me at all. You never took the time when you had the chance. So why should I bother ever trying to understand you? Why should I, when you didn't? You've told me to be the bigger person, but this time I'm not.

So I hope you continue to have a miserable life. And if I have to suffer too, then so be it. As long as I know it makes you suffer, I can take all the suffering and pain I need to.

Peace.

Wasted

today was the most boring day ever.
When I leave the house to try and do something to have fun
and come home not having done anything is the worst..
Started out ok. and just got worse and worse and worse as the sun went down.
Dodgeball was lame
Party was lame
My time was just wasted.

shoot..

laters gee..

peace

My Home

Super stoked for climbing club. I hope it turns out great and a lot of people sign up. Have to make a really inspirational video. Gotta show them the best.


This week is gonna go by fast I hope.

Tofu hurry up and come back..

We need to cover this:




This:



lol joke

But this one for sure:

I would post another video but they're all kinda, gay. Like homosexual gay. haha. and none of them are that good quality.


Today sucked balls.

Sick skipped school

Went to thresh.

Came home

Black ops

wasted time on computer.


Hopefully tomorrow is a lot better.

Peace.

I need to stop

My fingers freaking hurt like mad..I should probably take a break.

Just working out for now I guess. Can't lose my strength or else I'll be fucked.

I'm hoping Nick agrees to help with the climbing video.. It's gonna be dope if he does. He and I just work so well together. We both think similarly in a way but have different approaches to things.. When we combine them with his talent, bam.

Today sucked.

Yeah.

Peace.

Five more months

Five more months until school is done

Four more months until drill competition

Three more months until word back from Brown, NYU, and Syracuse

Two more months until word back from UCSD, UCLA, UCI, UCR, UCB, UCSB

One more month until financial aid forms are due

Just four more checkpoints until school is done.

Four more checkpoints until I'm out of here

Five more months until I will never see almost all these people again

Five more months of high school bliss

Five more months of being a kid

Five more months of high school hell

Five more months of fake people

Well not just five, more like 70 more years.

Five more months of waiting

for what I've been waiting for four years

And it'll be all over.

Four fast years.

I'll miss some,

I'll be glad to be rid of some.

But I'll miss everything.

Time to make the most of what I have left.

Just like the little bit of gas left in your tank

When that meter dips below the last line

You're waiting for that light to come on

So you can go fill up and see the meter go up again

But secretly you don't

You want to see how far you can push it

How much money you can save

How much you can squeeze out of the last little bit

Just five more months.

Free verse. Entitled five more months. I own all rights to this poem.

I wish I could freestyle
I wish I could be a poet
I wish to be so many things
But I never stop to look at what I am
Is that selfish?
Is that wrong?
Is that greedy?
Is that humble?
Is that ambitious?
I just want more.
But I am what I am


man..
I wish I felt tired so I could plop on my bed and fall asleep..
but I'm not tired at all. fuck.
well I'll just leave it at this.
Laters geee

Peace.

New Years 2011

Resolutions from last year:

1. Find what I truly want in life and decide whether it is practical or not. (X)

2. Be a nicer and safer driver and make less illegal moves and observe the speed limit. (X)

3. Be able to climb V8 and up

4. Focus in school

5. Find Jesus.

6. Keep my anniversary. Michelle you know what I'm talking about. What was it like 10/19 or somethig like that?

7. Be able to take off my shirt so that I can focus when I climb those 8's. (X)

8. Eat and stay healthy. (X)

9. Not be a douchebag

10. Make my family proud.

hmmmm kept 4? 40%.. Not bad not bad. At least I kept some right? haha.
Well let's make 11 this year.

1. Stop drinking tea

2. Hit a V10

3. Get a girlfriend

4. Get really ripped and strong

5. Be a good role model for my brother and all the little climbers at Thresh

6. Hopefully get into a college that I wanted to

7. Find a girlfriend..hmm oh wait. repeat.

8. idk I guess that's about it.

only 6 I guess.

2010, you were a wild year. Started off bomb, hit a massive slump, and ended on an okay note. 2011 I hope you will treat me better.

Peace.