trippin

Don't worry brah.. Everything will work out.
Just don't fuck up like I did.
I'm here for you.

Today was alright I guess..

Ms. Taylor seriously needs to stop bitching.

Damn.

I'll just put the math book away. geez.

shoot.

I hate that class so much.

Seriously cut down today.
I know that I can do it.
But do I want to.
That is the question.
I know I can.
But.
No.
I will.
And I have to.
Promises aren't meant to be broken.
Right?

Laters gee

Peace.

GO

Train hard for two weeks.
No more tea forever.
I'm turning this thing around.
Getting it back on track.
Let's do this.
I don't need to smoke.
Today was a good day.
Come on.
I can do this.
I will do this.
For myself.
And everyone else who wants me to stop.
Michelle
Ashton
Greg
Nat
Shasta
Tofu
Tony
Brandon
Everyone.

Ready

Set

Go!

Laters Gee

Peace.

Stop

i really need to stop.

Good session today at Thresh.

Was really inspired by Jo, Joel, Brandon, and some other guy I didn't know.
Awesome climbers. All of them are crazy strong.

Train
Train
Train
Train
Train.

My schedule for two weeks.

Put climbing on hold.

I'm just gonna get stronger and more ripped.

I need to be strong.

Physically
Mentally
Spiritually



Drill today was sort of successful I guess. Two moves haha. One of them no one could do.. I'm really regretting one of my choices. I really am. Why did we choose to do that? When I think back, it doesn't make any sense at all haha, Well, we're just going to have to deal with it. We still need one more person. But from the looks of it. Two more. I really want to but it would be messed up. But for the greater good right? To be honest. We're no where near the level we should be to get first place. I'd say second if we're lucky. Probably third. We really need to push it.


Tired.

Looking forward to tomorrow surprisingly.

Used to hate Tuesdays for the longest time.

But now I guess they're alright.

Laters gee

Peace

January 23, 2011

Sunday.
Morning.
Rain.
Is.
Not.
Falling.

My life has been really dull lately.
I miss climbing.
I miss a lot of things.
A lot of things have been missing.
In my life.
School.
Family.
God.
Friends.
I miss a lot of people.
People I used to be really close with.
Now I either don't see them at all
Or rarely see them.
I just feel like there's a piece missing.
In my life.
I can't put a finger on it.
I can't imagine what it is.
But I know something is missing.
In my life.
Is it a person?
Is it a thing?
I really don't know.
I've been filling that hole.
With tea.
It helps at the moment.
But once I'm done.
I know its something else.
And I regret my decision.
All that hole has been filled with so far.
Is regret.
Regret is the worst feeling.
The feeling that you could have done something more.
The feeling that you could have done it different.
The feeling that things could be different.
If I just did a little more.
If I just thought a little harder.
If I just didn't give up.
The thought that you put yourself.
In your position.
With no one else to blame but yourself.
Knowing things could have been different.
Maybe even better.
Is the worst feeling in the world.
Regret is the worst feeling.
I just want to make things better.
Let's just sleep this one off.

Chandler Yen: I don't know if you still read my blogs, but I just want to say I'm really happy for you. And now you shouldn't need a blogger. Because you don't need a blank page on a computer screen to put your words into. You have SOMEONE. A person. That will actually listen to you. Sympathize with you. Understand you. Laugh with you. Someone. To share all those memories and events. And I'm really happy for you. And I hope that you won't have to use this again. Because keeping things inside you is not good for you.

Played basketball for a bit lol. Good shit. It was fun. I guess I don't really hate basketball.
I just wished I had shoes instead of slippers. Danny I'm gonna miss you next semester because we won't have cooking anymore lol. Man. Our kitchen was so bomb..

Wish the colleges would send out their decisions already. I want to know where I'm going to be spending my next four years. And my biggest four years.

Laters gee.

Peace.

Scream!

Getting back into screamo again.

Haha I love it.

idk why. But its very..soothing. Helps me feel less angry, stressed, nervous, sad, everything. Just the music takes it away.

I would find a way without you.

Wednesday...Monday?

Feels like a Monday.
Been pretty sick for a while. Starting to get better slowly.

Really tired.
Headache.
No hw.
Music..
Chilling
Guitar.
Candy.
Awesome.

And you were worried you had no one. lol you have more friends than I do.

Laters gee.
Peace.

I give up..

Ugh school is so much work.. I give up... I just really don't care anymore. I want to enjoy life, not crawl through it.

Climb, chill, party, guitar, yes please.. its hard to go back to the school life after doing that for what seems forever..

ugh.. just one more day.. one weekend to cool down..

and the last stretch begins.

Pro musica here i come!

Fucked up my elbow today.. I was told I wouldn't be able to climb for 4-6 weeks.. most depressing ever. Hopefully it heals fast. Like really really really fast..

Fuck college english.. Only if it wasn't 0 period it wouldn't be that bad..

Feeling really tired right now.. I think I'll review for physics tomorrow morning..

Fuck it. I'll wing it. Lord help me.

I don't deserve it but please..

Amen.

I want to be really good at climbing.. Like really good.

Laters gee.

Peace