200

What a coincidence this will be my 200th post as well.

I'm such an outcast. I just don't fit in. I don't find anyone at school interesting. Just a few. Most are just boring, don't have much substance to them. I'm just not on the same "wave length" as the people. But I don't mind. At least it let's me focus on myself for a while. I've spent so much time this year for others, the class, and the seniors. I think it's time I went back to being how I feel most comfortable.

Today: PE. sat there for fifty minutes. Pro Musica. Sat there for fifty minutes. History. Raped kids on the debate with miles. I was really excited for that. Spanish. Oral presentation. Did pretty good. Chemistry. Sat there for fifty minutes and cleared my detentions! :) math played craps and argued with my pops. Went home. Just slept. Then played video games. Cooked dinner. Went to compassio. Sermon was really good. Too loud. Too many people. No friends. Peaced out. Went to starbucks. Chilled until they closed. Met up with Greg. Tried out his bike..I really want to buy it. I swear gregs like the only person Im just really comfortable with. There's just something when me and him get together..lol cuz we're both douchebags and ostrascized. Whatever we have each others backs. That's all that counts. Everyone else has their special someone or close group of friends I just don't have any of that. I should try and work on that.

Came home and had an hour long discussion with my dad. About my future, my life, how I need to change, my priorities. I know what I want. And what I want basically requires me to have no social life. And well I'm getting there. And it's depressing..I just need people...I just want someone. Someone. I don't know who..but someone. Special. That I like. And who likes me too. Someone I can talk to about anything. Someone who can talk to me about anything. Someone I can just be myself when I'm with them. Someone that accepts me for who I am. Someone that wants to talk to me and hang out with me on occasion. Someone that I enjoy talking and hanging out with. Someone who I can just laugh with..and can just sit there with. Share memories. Create new ones. But whatever. I'm done. I've been done trying to do that stuff since two years ago. Well just like Greg said don't worry about it. You don't have to look. The right one will come and when she does you guys will both know. Then just be confident in yourself. And I believe that. Someday. Someone.

I think I'm gonna go into law again. I think ive already blogged that but yeah. That's become my new goal.

Need to start studying. I'm not too worried but now I really want 800 on both just to show him that I can. Oh I also need to find a summer job! I need some money!

1. You annoy me.

2. You really annoy me. You're seriously just all talk. Stop acting like it and actually show it. Stop being such a poser.

3. You're really messed up. Really messed up.

4. Thank you for that. I realized how wrong I had been. Thank you. Please just trust me.

5. You better pay up. Or else I'll destroy your car. I'm serious.

Ehhh kind of pissed off..not sure why..well I do know but for many reasons.

Peace everybodies :)