4th of July

Independence Day..sweet. Went to LA ate got haircut usual stuff went shopping went to VG after. Came home cooked dinner watched Korean dramas. Typical day..exciting no? haha. I don't really care about July 4th..its not that special. But I hope you all enjoyed it! And taking tomorrow off! well you guys probably don't have any obligations anyways. but at least for me and other summer students no class! yay.

I really don't want to go back to school. I just want to go to college and get started on my life. I'm gonna make it big and I'm determined to do so. It feels like such a waste of time going back for another year of high school. Well at least I'll be taking two "college" courses. Now that I think about it, I'll have four college course credits when I get to college. More free time means more time to study and get ahead. Then I'll have more time to party and socialize later.

I want to go for a drink.. Living in America sucks for that..in Korea I could go and by some drinks. I just miss my family. I want to drink with my aunts and my cousins. Haha it was so much fun being with them. I'm jealous of all of you guys here. Who have a lot of your family members here. I really am. I rarely get to see them or even hear their voice. I didn't even get to see all of them last summer. Hopefully next summer I'll see all of them.

That's why I never really liked Christmas or any other holidays. It feels so empty knowing that everyone else is having a huge family party or something. I've probably said this before but I don't really like my dad's side of the family. Its small, super conservative, boring, poor, too different. Its not like my mom's side is super rich, they're pretty poor too. But at least they're fun, and show love and feels like family.

I feel really relaxed and happy nowadays mostly. Except for sudden mood swings. I like it.

Its almost my brother's birthday..what should I get him? hmmmm..he's not that into video games anymore.. not really sure what he likes. He mentioned wanting a wii so I guess I'll get him that new black one maybe. I'll see.

Finished 찬란한 유산 (Shining Inheritance) yesterday. It was pretty good, but waaayyyy too serious. It was way too heavy. I like something more light hearted..like Coffee Prince haha. well started My Girl. Its pretty good. I like it. Does watching all these Korean dramas make me gay? or just a little feminine?

I admit being a little feminine, but that's because I grew up around women. I had a lot of aunts. 5 of them. And they all took care of me at one point or another. My dad was busy working at his practice. Oh and my grandmother too. Lot of girl cousins too. Hung out with one of them a lot. so i blame it on that. But i'm not gay! I hate gays.

It feels like 7:00 PM..but its almost 1:00 AM. weird.

downloaded the new AIM program..actually pretty good. I like it. I'm gonna usw it instead of meebo now.

hmmmm...I wish I had plans for this summer besides studying, reading, and practicing. But its ok. I don't know who to hang out with. But no one wants to hang out with me so its all good. I dont have to worry about it. if someone wants to they can call. I can't think of anyone that I'm dying to see. maybe a couple. but thats probably it I guess..but I miss everyone. I hope everyone is enjoying their last summer of high school. Because next year we'll all be going our seperate ways.

Makes me wonder if we'll all really bond next year. At havasu and whatnot. I hope drill pulls through. I don't know if I should do it or not. way too much pressure. And I need to worry about getting into a good college before anything else. Friends, family, God, everything can wait. well maybe not God. I need His help. and His guidance and wisdom to help me decide my future. No I'll place God at the head then I'll follow and look for schools. Our class has been kind of lacking in the class spirit area. Hopefully we change that next year. I thought maybe this year but nope. I hope I make at least one more friend that I want to keep in contact after high school.

I need to start looking at colleges..Williams, UCSD, UCLA, UCI, UCB, Amherst, Swarthmore, Vanderbilt, Harvard, Yale, Princeton, Cornell, Dartmouth, Emory, Stanford, Pomona, University of Chicago, University of Rochester, University of New York, Brown, 연세대, 서울대.. that's probably good enough. I'm sure I'll get into at least one of those schools. I can't believe that I'm going to start applying to colleges soon. So exciting and scary. I'm gonna make it big.. thinking of going into business or law. eff medicine. too much work and can't make that much money. You're not really making profit until like the third year of working. and you don't really start working until you finish all those extra years of education and training and your money will go into paying that. Yeah it can help a lot of people and there will always be work, but I can't do that. I was never that interested in it anyways. I'm just too much of a douche and too selfish.

wow that was a lot.. I need to talk to more people lol. I've been really anti social this summer. But can't really blame me.

I <3 summer 2010. i want 09 back.

Peace.

much love