Nell..

I am deeply sorry for your family and your losses. I understand the pain of losing a parent but both is just unimaginable. Everyone here is praying for you and your family..hah don't know what else to say... its just so unfair..

Chandler Yen..don't worry about it. You didn't even do much. It was mostly me and Greg. I don't understand why you were there with us. And I feel that I owe you an apology. Its kind of late but tomorrow I'll call you or something. Haha I remember you were scared and didn't want to go. Then Greg threatened you with something I can't remember. hmmm.. well on behalf of Greg I would like to apologize for getting you mixed up in this. But why did this come up now?

I try not to hate people..maybe not very hard but I try.

I really don't want to go back to this school. I really don't have anyone anymore. How did it turn out like this? I never really had that many friends. Even in elementary school in Korea. everyone backstabbed me. after I came here it was even harder to make friends. couldn't speak the language. different culture and ideas..no sense of respect. Now I see every friendship I had eventually broke apart. I really wonder how I turned out like this. Bad relationships with my immediate family. No relationships with my dad's side at all. haha why am I like this today? ehhh events from today has put me in a very pensive mood.

once i clear my head I'll update again. until then good luck trying to contact me. unless i call you first.

peace