Wed-nes-day

Life is just a game. Only one chance. Gotta make the best of it. As I was reflecting on my life for the past two hours I came to a conclusion that I am headed towards ultimate failure. I have no motivation to do anything. I'm selfish try to control everything and manipulate everyone to do things in my favor. I guess I could run a gang or something but don't really want to do that. My goals in life and my pursuits don't match up with my personality. I never do my homework but somehow I manage a 4.0 or close to it every year. I never study for tests and I rarely get lower than a A-. The amount of effort I put into school is ridiculous. My lifestyle reflects that of a dropout. My attitude reflects that of a failure. But why am I given all these opportunities? Why do I still have good grades? That's one thing I just can't understand. But don't get me wrong. I've been really happy these past few months. They have been a blast. Doing whatever I want. But I need to get serious and focus on the future. What is in store for me? What am I supposed to do after all this? What's the point? I'm filled with questions with no answers. Never should have gone down that path. I wasn't like this before. To me now, only a few things matter. Me and my friends. That's it. Nothing more nothing less. Life is just a game. It's a beautiful lie. A perfect denial what a beautiful lie to believe in. Enough depressing introspective thoughts.

1. Haha I've seriously missed you in my life. Where have you been man? We both kind of helped each other up when we were down.

2. Lol dumbass.

3. I need a base guitar. Noo it's bass.

Eh that's it. What would you do? I need a lot of money fast. Once I do. Start messing around with stocks and buisinesses. Gain some power in the world.

I don't know if I do or if I don't. I feel it's just a waste of time but then again what isn't? What is worth my time? Ever thought of that? Is what I'm doing really worth my time and effort? Are the end benefits, if any, better then he input of my time and effort? Food for thought. Is life worth it? I definitely think so. It's free. It's fun. Can be stressful and depressing but it's how you make it out to be. It's a big clay ball. You shape it the way you want to and dont let anyone criticize your masterpiece. And mine right now looks like a big messy lump. But I had fun making it. And I don't regret it one bit. I'm out.

Peace